Audience Choice Film Festival Normination

The Norminated short film "Hong Kong" starring a Local actress Dawn Ooi and two French actors Nicolas Martin and Mehdi.

No.. Dun.. Blah Blah Blah...

NO! dun! it's not gonna last... dun put in too much...

this's wat ppl hav been sayin to mi...

dun invest in something that wun last or hav returns in the end..

but do you realise that time is not an accurate measurement?
it can be something that is 5 or 10 yrs but it still ends in the end
so should i hav said no to u in the first place?

no i wun, because you should experience life the way your hearts tells u to with regards to using ur head too.
i noe that its something that wun last but does it matter?
now that i am happy with life?

and that i found a reason for mi to smile?

never live life and look back saying i should have... i wish i had.. if only i..
never regret, every day is an experience that is unique
so celebrate each day that u lived coz not one is similar...

Immerse in the Present

The weather is really awesome, with the right kind of sun for a great day at the beach...
and it makes mi feel happy.... =)

but i guess watever that goes up will come down sooner or later...
nothing lasts forever especially the happy moments..
but meanwhile why worry about the future when you cant predict it?
immerse in the present and bask in the happy times..

Grayness

my night's shrouded by this aura of moody-ness
that somehow seems to engulf my whole being
swallowing me atom by atom...

yet strangely there is no will to get out of it...

i am in the midst of Gray Clouds....
Drifting..

Uncertainties

running... once a passion so strong that nothing could deter me from its path...

to feel the speed when you run...
the trill of clocking a good time...

the pressure of performing..............

do i still run becoz of the desire to run???
i love running... but...... has training became a chore instead of an enjoyment?
has the pressure to perform turn it into a a battle everytime?
where has my fighting spirit gone?
why do i not feel motivated to train everyday?
or has the training environment changed?

3 yrs... i am almost always trainin alone... all the time
rain or shine i will be down at the track
gave up my social life, pratically no time to meet up with friends..
i always wonder how is it like to hav a life other than running 24/7
to play other sports for pure enjoyment?
and not competitive all the time?

ranking 5th in singapore now.. wat has it given mi???
more pressure from coach paul to perform??
to feel screwed up everytime i cant clock a good time in the race?
feel ashame to face coach...
i dun noe wat i want anymore...
i used to be so sure but now... there r many other things in life that i want to achieve..
everyone is saying dun give up you r almost there but do they know the toll it has taken on mi??

i know i always seems like an energizer bunny always on the go.. trainin everyday but do they noe the lonliness of trainin alone?
the Sacrifice i made to be where i am today?

i am so afraid that if i let go i'll regret it..
but i juz dun no how to carry on...

3 Babes.. hahaha

My sisters and me on the first day of Chinese New Year

Chinese New Year

Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!

chinese new year!!!!!!!!
New year in Miri is awesome... the whole atmosphere is totally chinese new yr unlike spore..... food n lots of food all home made.... juz cant stop eating...
n the fire works r so cool n fun to play with.

makes mi feel so happy n part of the big family...

The First Breath of the Morning

breathe......

the smell of morning whiff up my nose...
the slight dampness of the dew drops on the leaves,
the breeze that sweeps through bringing in the scent of a beautiful morning
with the promise of a perfect day...

i open my eyes and took in the cloudless sky

this is going to be one of those days where everything seems so right..



well at least the disappointments doesn't come till later in the day...

and hopes surge through me.....

Coolness

do i need to say more?

Home... strange enough, i really missed it... wanna be home, where i feel totally at peace with myself..

training is taking over my life again... soon it will be the same lifeless schedule.. not that i hate it...i love it in a way.. its necessary... but it means less time to hang out with frens... will that distance me from my frens?
training really exhuast me both mentally and physically....

Nice but suckie la~

dun really know what is goin on...
kinda in a half optimistic half pessimistic situation..
cant say that i am totally unhappy about it.. but neither am i totally contented with it..
wouldnt want a fast forward but yet loathe the lull about it...
to sum it up.. nice but suckie la~

but meanwhile i dun give a damn and continue to enjoy my life!!!!!!!!!

Drift

Drift wood floating among the waves...
moving which ever direction the current takes it to...
never finding a beach that it wants to drift up to...
when it finally sights one,
it is caught between the current that is pulling it out to the boundless ocean and the waves that are pounding on to the shore....

torn and uncertain

Breeze

For the breezy gust shall set its course,
and the gloom will be put away by the orange star
and a smile shall reign from afar the dusk is gone for all is well in dawn

Fog

State of blue....
clouds, murky sky, raindrops...

casting their gloom over the dawn.
where there should be a crimson tinge creeping up the horizon, it was a greyish hue that envolops the sky and the landscape instead...

fog swirling around obstructing the sun....

the dampness clung on to everything...

How Dumb can a person get?

How Dumb can a person be??

i have juz received stupid comments like:

Dev wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! says:
when and where u saw?
Dawn - Arugh i saw a flasher!! says:
juz now at bukit batok
Dev wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! says:
lol
Dev wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! says:
cool
Dev wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! says:

Dawn - Arugh i saw a flasher!! says:
its not cool dude
Dev wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! says:
haha
Dev wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! says:
y la..
Dev wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! says:
traumatised ah
Dev wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! says:
take it ez man
Dawn - Arugh i saw a flasher!! says:
nope but its jux not cool

can u believe something like that came out from someone who is goona be a teacher??
wats gonna happen to the future generations of spore?

shit wat happen to him? brains dripped out during GESL GYm sessions?? pumping too much iron till he has no brains left?
MOron!!!

*2 tight Slaps* you major fuck ass!! where is the Quality control for teachers?

Shit happens

One breezy night i was chatting away happily with veron, laughing and bitching abt stuff.
suddenly... i felt a presence behind me and out of instinct i turn around.

ARUGH!!!!!!
i saw this looming figure flondlin his manhood right in front of me with his pants down... Horrors...
But instead of the typical high pitch screams females normally emit, i cooly whipped out my Nokia 7610 and called the pigs...
but damn the pigs, by the time they got there i could have been raped and killed..

they took 20mins to arrive...
The irony, when they declare in their posters that we slp sound becoz of them...

shit happens...

reflection of my sub concious?

Holidays.... the period of time when you r suppose to be enjoying and wishing that it'll last forever....

but... it doesnt feel so to me.....

this hols feels weird... or rather its me....
i dun feel happy...... why not? i dun noe...

i feel really suffocated....

it feels like tonnes and tonnes of cotton are falling on me and i am drowning under it... trying to gasp for air, fighting the cottons pushing them aside to get the sweet air of life... but.. when i finally gulp in the precious lungful of air , it didnt feel like a relief... it feels like i've breathed in a lungful of exhuast fumes instead..

gasp!!!!
i find myself on my bed with my pillows around me... its a dream.... but is it??

Remise

walkin past clement's n nico's ex hall room give me a feeling of empitness...
it feels like how you'll still have the feeling of your arm when its already amputated off...

no longer be able to pop my head into their room n holler "hey Drunk Smurf"

miss them most when during certain moments in jon's room where you'll expect to hear clement's voice and seeing him entering the room makes the slience louder..

julie, one of the rare person that i met who shares my spirit of implusiveness, living for the moment, its such a regretable thing that i din get to know her that well during the whole term time....

here i am sitting in front of my comp and staring into space... remising....

Wana Get Away...

Looking thru all my Vacation pictures juz makes me wanna get away for another trip...
i hear the call of a vacation calling out to me...
but tickets in dec is really too expensive....
Ppl might think that i'm crazy to want to go on another trip when i juz came back from one recently
but how can i ever describe to them the exhilaration of a trip overseas without plans..
the experience of being out of our comfort zone..
the thrill of trying out new things
the release from the hectic n stressful lifestyle of singapore...
they would never understand how i feel till they experience it themselves...
even so it might not be the same coz every experience is a unique one..

when will i ever get out of singapore and its mudane life...

to do wat i wanna do, to live a life that i truly wan to and be the person i really am without all the constraints of this conforming society??

Stop! dun bother telling me that i am too idealistic...
How can there ever be the existence of your dreams in reality if you never dare to dream and work towards it??


I know where i belong amd every particle of my body and soul yearn towards it...
Dun bother judging me, i dun give a shit... find something more intertesting to do ya...

Lifeless??

bah bah bah.....

back to trainin life again after slacking for 2 months..'
gotta to try to wake up in the morning for the double session...

anyway am going away to malaysia from x mas to some stupid wedding... shucks!!!
but daddy say so.... =( arugh...

life's so boring... everyday is a repetition.... shucks!!!
Suckie la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!