Please..........

Stop!! Stop!!!
i talked to him ALREADY!!!
u juz dun understand so dun keep askin me to talk to him
coz i did!!!
dun tell mi wat i shouldnt have said or stuff!!!
coz i watever i said is the truth from the bottom of my heart...
u have only seen him hurtin!! but wat about me??
when i used to hurt like real bad did u guys see it or noe/?
NO!! so stop judging!!
u think i will deliberately hurt someone??
it is never on purpose.. only a sicko will do that
and i am not one!!!!!!
i am screamin screaming like nuts in my head!!
i feel so fustrated!!! so fustrated!!!!!!
arrrrrhhhhhhhHHhhh!!!!!!!!
gimme a break!!!!!!





sorry if i sounds accusive and harsh..
but i am really at my wits end..
i feel bad too..
real bad...
sorry is all i can say...
so pls please i beseech u... stop...
gimme some room to calm that turmoil inside me..
i need quiet...


quiet....

Let me be...

RanDoM ThOuGHts

talk about old age and its symdroms.. arugh!!
can u believe it, this old lady actually slept till 7pm in the evening and forgot, Yes!! forgot about jackie's wedding dinner...
>_<
lucky kok sing gave me a call... hehehe..
made there juz in time before the wedding ceremony started..
shout out thanks to my dearest beloved daddy!!!!
*mUaCks Love u dad!!!! the awesome dad agreed to carry all my stuff back home for me gosh u have no idea how much barang barang i had...
and drop me off to take a cab to meritus mandarin...
thankz daddy!!!

this is my first fren's wedding that i attended... man i used to tell yuen about how u'll know when u r getting old when r start gettin invite to weddings.. =p
well 1 more wedding to go.. sufian's... >_<"
Jackie wedding was awesome really nice... n he n jamie looks beautiful together...
all my best them!!!

its the hols now n wat hav i been doin??
erm.. sleepin like a sloth.. man i guess i muz be hibernating thru this hols..
i need to run!!! run!! run!! away all the fats !!!! >.<

seeing the asian games advert on tv.. makes me wonder if i had continue sprinting would i hav been in it??
i do really miss it.. the speed... the satisfaction... it was my everything, rankin way above every other thing...
but as i always say never ever hav regrets
well i dun... coz i guess i really gained other stuff too..
i would never hav got involved in touch rug, wouldnt have back pack n see the world, wouldnt have met people...
significant ones.. =p

maybe in life i made choices and decisions that may seem crazy n way unreasonable..
not that i never thought about the choices i made, i do .. probably more than others wil ever noe...
but i noe wat i am doin, absolutely... i noe where i wanan go in life.. maybe it seem crazy but thats wat i wanna do.. nobody is able to stop or influence me..
not even family...


hmm... gosh i sounds scary..
hahahah..
wel juz some thoughts that i randomly throw out..
hehehhe...

hmm.. maybe its late thats why my brain's getting cranky n spewing trash.. =p

Its all ur fault!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well well...
wat can i say..

hmmm..
ey!! skinnywag couple i love u guys!!!
waahahaha
i noe what i wan n i will do it
dun care la~~ sianzz

wats gotta be gone gotta be done!!

>_<"

watever!!!!!
its all becoz of u!! yes u!!!
that i noe wat i wana do!!! or rather make me do wat i am gonna do!!!!!
so!!!! its not my fault!!!!

Fucking strange n weird!!! wahahaaha!!!! =p

weird how lil' days more till i'm leaving for france... 1 n 1/2 months b4 i'll see all u fuckin people again.. =p strangely yes weird isnt it that i'll really miss u guys.. super duper miss.. maybe its that i wun get to spend time havin super duper loads of fun with all u awesome fucker ppl!!! okok i'll say it,,, i heart u guys!!! yes!! jon including u!! whahaahah... okie okie i wun poke fun at jon anymore, in case ro's oblige to defend n wait 3 sec b4 she can laugh!! ahahah... but u skinny wag couple... thanks for being there for me all these times.. esp yest.. yup yest u hav no idea how shity n god damn it nervous i felt b4 tellin u guys... =p hehhee... totaally mega stress till i wana start balding.. nope i dun wanna bald!!! wahahah..
thnakz anyway!! love u!!!!
all u babis, babes, fucka ppl, lions, piglets and every other ppl or animals reading or not reading my blog... know that i'll super duper huper miss U assholes!! hahah assholes coz i'll be missing those awesome moments that u'll have without me!! wahahaha...!
okie okie enuff of my verbal diarrhea.. >_<"
Have lots of fun without me!! BUT remember to email or msn n update me on the shit u guys'll be doin ya?? promise???!!! *showing lil pinkie*
okie okie i'll even settle for juz reading ur blogs... =p

>.<

sNaPs sHoTs Of dA BabE @ EsCaPe

Awesome time screaming my lil' lungs out at Escape... totally worth the $6 i paid!!
it was FUn FUN FUN n FUN!!!!
n ARUGHHHHHHH!!!!!! non stop!!! Free flow screaming ppl!! Free Flow!!!
Horror Movie marathon was great too!!! so yes!! non stop screamin n fright again!!
>.<
hehehe... Summary?? well juz plain awesome!!! *muacks* >.-

SnApShoTs OF dA bABe @ Channel V Launch wif wayne

Great time wif Wayne at the channel v launch, we had a lil free booze coz we sneak into the vip section.. haha but too bad we got chased out.. wahahaha..
n great clubbin at butter after that!!! Thank to all the ppl who gave mi "face" n turn up i really had a great time!!! see u guys when i am back!! wil so gonna miss u !!! Shout out to the Babis Suzi!! Farah!! Ro!!! fucka ppl Jon!! Haresh!! n Ro again!!! Babes Banu!!! fiona!!! hehehe =p
Muacks love u guys!! cant wait for the next cubbing!!!

SnAps sHoTs of dA MugGeR

sNaps ShotS of Da BabE

StoryBoArd of My days - PesS FaMilY Day

PumA!!! wat Could Be CoOleR??!!!
Cute Lil Kindergarden kidz... awwwww

ThE 4 FucKa PeOplE

AARRHHHHH!!! ShoW dA TongUe!!!!!
Galz of the class.. *note 1st from left's gross so dun bother lookin at her.... wahahaha
whahaha FunNy ContRast!!!
The 2 robocock..... oops robocops wahahaha
*NoTe the Blazing sun!!!!! Ro N me in sunglasses!!
In Azwan's car the 3 CoOl FuCka PEoPle =p
Pess FaMily Day @ SeNtOsA

ShOpPiNg SpRee, PricEleSs

earings plus necklace $21 *arugh i totally regret buyin one of the earings, the blue one fugly!!.. gosh i feel so cheated by the lights in the shop n the mirror which was placed so high up.. like a shortie like me could check herself out decently... >_<
Weird Ass top $20
Fruits of my shopping spree, duffel bag $32

StoryBoArd of My days

Wat a SweEt Gesture!!! "Muacks" =)

After Test!! head down to bugis for my ShOpPing SpReE!!!! a bag, a top, a belt, earing and a necklace and round off with dinnerat MOS burger!!!

Pufferfish dawn...gosh see how bored i am..instead of staring at the book, i'm making stupid faces at my camera

Stupid JP's mac doesnt open 24 hr.., so poor us have to head back to my room in ntu

Start of sports psyc retest at Mac at jurong point with yee yuen

I love the embroidery!!

Aint the jeans awesome?!

Cheap Thrill + Caramel Popcorn + Mushrooms on the Arse

darn... another day wasted for not studyin...
totaaly juz have fun, and happily forgets about the test...
well..not really.. well mugging starts tmr n will continue for 2 days i guess...
*determined look
arrrhhh... slack siaz...
=|
totally spend the day travelling from 1 end of the island to the other....
try taking the bloody Mrt from boon lay to pasir ris...
my god.. backside also grow mushrooms la
totally cheapo.. when i saw the promo, 6 bucks for unlimited rides in escape... i almost scream my consent to the children who pop the idea!!!
YESS.. OF COURSE!! =p
even in the midst of the crappy rainy weather at boon lay, we pray n confidently *note self denial* believe that the sun will be out when we get there...
yup! the sun came out but damn!! escape was closed!!!!
what the 'ell is wrong!!!!!!!!!
the stupid, yes i repeat S T U P I D website states that its open on sat n sun n public n school hols... damn isnt sch hols now???
arughhh!!!!!
juz imagine my chagrin when i saw the No entry sign when i got there!!!!!!!!!!!
all the travelling till my arse's numb...
all for nuthing....
well the poor children n i end up screamin n groaning n moaning all the way...
but we had to do something!!!!!!
end up playing some silly basketball game at the arcade..
gosh can u juz imagine me in arcade...
totally not!
well we got thru till LEVEL 3~!!!!! *bball game =p

yeah!!! teamwork!!!!!

end up going for cheap thrill!!
since we were all set n ready to scream our lil' hearts out at escape, we had to find a sub....
so The Grudge 2 became our cheap thrill...
not say a fantastic movie but it serve its purpose in scaring us shitless!!!!
totally clinging onto each other n screaming at the slightest shit!!!!
well there r only 2 things i remember abt the movie...
screamin n cringing
and ogling at EDISON CHEN!!
did i mention that he was staring??!!
no??!!
what's wrong with me....
arugh signs of age... *sob sob
well that totally gorgeous and adorable dude still died in the end but he had quite a bit of screen time..... awwwww... cute!!
when he came on screen we all juz went "shuai" at the same time!!!
talk about telepathy.. haha...
they shoulda put him as the poster boy instead of the ugly freaky lil kid.. would have done better in the box office.. =p
well went to vivo city to slack again after that!!
man, spore's too small!! nowwhere to go!!! arugh...
well had awesome latte timtams n realize the fact at how lousy i am at photo hunt...
goshhh!!! omigod!!!
wanted to check out the gap store coz farah was goin on abt how good but ex the jeans was.... too bad it was closed...
i check out the new levis ladies jeans,,,
well some of the cutting were nice but man wats with the heart shape pockets??!!
so GAY!!!!
i was in love with the golden embroidery till i saw the horrible heart shape pockets at the front??!! how do they expect normal ppl to walk abt with heart shapes at the front of their fucking jeans??!!!
well then the next i wanted was the crystal studded ones.. but damn it will have to b handwash... wat the fuck is wrong with levis??!! u put crytals that will fall off if i dump it in the wash??! then y am i paying 200 over bucks for the piece of shit???
talk abt taking stupidity to the max...
who handwashes jeans??!!!!!
arugh!!
*shaking my head
well now.. totally gonna sleep... n wake up to study tmr...
*crossing my fingers hard
=p

n planning my shoppin trip when pays comes in .... =)

Her and Her Knowledge

There are stuff she knows better left unknown..
Yet maybe knowing wun make it better but worse..
She knows , all too well...
In her heart yet she knows , still wanna knows..

I wish i Knew

Totally missing home!
Wanna have NON STOP MTVs, hilarious Taiwannese variety shows, total bitch feast with the sisters, mum's food!!!
I mISS HoMe!!!

But....
it means that i wun be able to do work then....
But...
Test's juz on mon..
arugh!!!
Homeless days again...

i miss my bed n toilet bowl!!!
my wardrobe and sofa!!

WaNa HeAd HomE!!!!!

Home has become such a refuge for me...

P/S: today's outing really's great!!
hadn't had such a fun n chill time for the longest time
cheers!!
awesome movie, flushed away... couldnt stop laughing =p

Her, Black, Whte or Grey

It was like a persistent buzzing in her ears...
bugging her all day long...
white or black?
black or white?
In midst of swirling turmoil spinning her around...
White? Black?
Black? white?
Spinning and revolving...
Revolving and spinning...
Bluring into grey....
grey and grey and grey, endless wave of greyness...
"STops!" she screams...
It halted.
All came to a standstill.
Black? or White?
or is it
White, Black or Grey?

Her and Her Desires

The ripe overwhelming fruit calls out to her...
Whiff of that luscious fruit makes her craves..
With trembling fingers she reachs out
Through her veins desire oozes ...
Temptation became unbearable...
Her yearning fingers stretching towards...
*pOnk
With something hard and cold her fingers met..
hard, cold, unyielding glass...
The division between her and her desire...

watever

been meaning to sleep earlier.. but somehow dun seem to do so...

suckie

watever...

The crimson petals seem enthralling...
Beckoning the touch of my fingers...
The Fragrance emitting from the blossom impeded me in my thoughts...
Alluring yet intriguing...
Dews of venom on its smooth petals..
For the lightest touch spells death...