work work work

work ...
adult life...
sometimes it really seem so unreal to me...
hiaz...
everyday its the same,
wake up , go to school, mark books,
do admin work, assemble,
start of work..
end of sch..

what happen to my life?
i've lost the essence of it... i cant go and play touch as n when i like ..
i dun have the energy to run like i use to...
i am losing everything that i enjoy..
i am losing myself...
guess weekend's the onli time that i look forward to...
but i am always so tired that slacking with lil lion is all i wanna do..
stay home n watch tv do e record...
maybe i am still learning to get use to it.. but that doesnt mean that i like it...
in fact i hate it... absolutely ....
i miss my life...


sports and everything...

>.<

Strange ponders....

Isnt it strange that someone reads so much into my blog but yet it ain't refering to what that person think its all about...
my sincere appologies to whoever it may concern...

My entries are all about my thoughts and feelings of my life Now...

I am happy with what i am and i have now...
although life has its ups and downs but in no way would i want things to change now...
well most of them anyway... hehehehe...
=p

Regret

saw ro's entry ... well dim sum dollies... wat a lucky bitch!! hahaha...
Been wanting to catch that since news of it first came out.....
so so so so wanna watch it... so willingly to give up my david eddings books for that... hey david edding's so important to me that u can see how much i wanna dim sum dollies' lastest...
disappointment's an understatement...

words juz cant do justice..

wat can i say except another disappointment in life and regret over missing such a great show...
well hiaz...
Regrets...
really regretted...
moi bday wish for the year?? something no one can give me... my dim sum dollies' lastest History of singapore....

hiaz...
leave me alone to comtemplate one of the few regrets in my life...

Inspiring...

*sigh* my blog's kinda Obsolete...
Juz haven had the time to pen down any thoughts...'
but i guess the most inspiring emotion that motivates u is sadness..
nothing can wax eloquence like the negative side of a human...
the down side of life that drags you down ironically makes you wanna write about it...

There are things that pull me down but i guess i have been coping okie.. but nothing beats the news today...
it stings like a wasp sting... sending pulses of venom into your blodd stream with every throb of your heart...
slowly inflitrating your body and contaminating every single cell... every single atom...
moving in like a swarm of locusts... devoring every rational thoughts...

But aint human an animal where primitive instinct takes over when pain and hurt are perceived?
what instinct you ask?
Pulling yourself into a protective cocoon...
Minimise damage done and begin healing... aint it?

cowardly you said?
maybe i am...
coz pain juz aint my best fren...

i guess i haven start the cocoon yet...guess the system's still in shock over the sting...
only time can tell... wat effects it'll have on me.. i guess...
i'll see....
Au'revoir...
My alternate ego...