work work work

work ...
adult life...
sometimes it really seem so unreal to me...
hiaz...
everyday its the same,
wake up , go to school, mark books,
do admin work, assemble,
start of work..
end of sch..

what happen to my life?
i've lost the essence of it... i cant go and play touch as n when i like ..
i dun have the energy to run like i use to...
i am losing everything that i enjoy..
i am losing myself...
guess weekend's the onli time that i look forward to...
but i am always so tired that slacking with lil lion is all i wanna do..
stay home n watch tv do e record...
maybe i am still learning to get use to it.. but that doesnt mean that i like it...
in fact i hate it... absolutely ....
i miss my life...


sports and everything...

>.<

Strange ponders....

Isnt it strange that someone reads so much into my blog but yet it ain't refering to what that person think its all about...
my sincere appologies to whoever it may concern...

My entries are all about my thoughts and feelings of my life Now...

I am happy with what i am and i have now...
although life has its ups and downs but in no way would i want things to change now...
well most of them anyway... hehehehe...
=p

Regret

saw ro's entry ... well dim sum dollies... wat a lucky bitch!! hahaha...
Been wanting to catch that since news of it first came out.....
so so so so wanna watch it... so willingly to give up my david eddings books for that... hey david edding's so important to me that u can see how much i wanna dim sum dollies' lastest...
disappointment's an understatement...

words juz cant do justice..

wat can i say except another disappointment in life and regret over missing such a great show...
well hiaz...
Regrets...
really regretted...
moi bday wish for the year?? something no one can give me... my dim sum dollies' lastest History of singapore....

hiaz...
leave me alone to comtemplate one of the few regrets in my life...

Inspiring...

*sigh* my blog's kinda Obsolete...
Juz haven had the time to pen down any thoughts...'
but i guess the most inspiring emotion that motivates u is sadness..
nothing can wax eloquence like the negative side of a human...
the down side of life that drags you down ironically makes you wanna write about it...

There are things that pull me down but i guess i have been coping okie.. but nothing beats the news today...
it stings like a wasp sting... sending pulses of venom into your blodd stream with every throb of your heart...
slowly inflitrating your body and contaminating every single cell... every single atom...
moving in like a swarm of locusts... devoring every rational thoughts...

But aint human an animal where primitive instinct takes over when pain and hurt are perceived?
what instinct you ask?
Pulling yourself into a protective cocoon...
Minimise damage done and begin healing... aint it?

cowardly you said?
maybe i am...
coz pain juz aint my best fren...

i guess i haven start the cocoon yet...guess the system's still in shock over the sting...
only time can tell... wat effects it'll have on me.. i guess...
i'll see....
Au'revoir...
My alternate ego...

woooooo~~~

ma' classmates!!
Lil lion @ teh hairdresser

Before

After

Updates finally

Life's been kinda boring.. but its nice in a slack kinda way... well there's only so much time i can slack away b4 i start working for the rest of my life..

i guess everything's fine... as long as things dun get buried and allow to fester for too long... trashing things out 's great.. =pwell haven been updating for a long long time..

i've been a cave woman for so long...
>.<

hahaah

well... been wondering wat can i do this hols to spice it up a lil??

welll gonna post some long overdue pics of mi n lil lion in thailand...

=P

Ice Cream!! @ MBK

Sky Train

Sitting at a road side cafe in Khao San road

Some weird ass missionary who thought he could change the world by preaching about his god... yurks.. yup i'm anti religion ya... in the middle of sin city

cruly hair pesonnel

Kinda hate to admit it.. but i'm missing the presence of
a certain curly hair person with dreads hanging down
like some tail...
=p
something major seemed to be missing....
well 3 days more... u go gal!!!!
>.<

fotos~~~

Jess, cheryl and me having dinner at this

posh korean resturant for free coz the boss who's a freakin

rich guy treat us!! yipeeee.....

=p

My Dream Car!!!

Great nitez out at cafe iguana wif lil lion!!

At the airport before we leave for bangkok!!

Disappointment

Ain't it strange how things can affect you...
Sinkin you down into thick cottony gloom...

Disappointment?
more than that i guess...
perphaps...........

*sign*

>,<

hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Lifeless

Lifeless... yup! that's me...
weekends seem so short nowdays... juz a blink n a short nap it's over...
boo hoo hoo... =(
cant seem to remember what i have done since practicum starts...
all i can feel is tiredness and sleepy-ness...
even if i managed to end work earlier i never seem to have
any energy left to do other stuff...
miserable that's my name...
Depressed... plus i'm broke... and i'm getting fat for lack of
energy to do sports
hiaz... think soon i'll be the next one getting my face splashed
across the news for the next MRT suicide headlines...

okie okie i noe that's used tonnes of times already,
how about sentosa tram suicide??

i guess i have never planned so much in my life compared to now...
every single day lesson plan lesson plan lesson plan......... arugh!!!
i so need a permanent break from all these shyte... god save mi... =
standing from of 4o lil monkeys and taming them into some sort
of civility is no easy feat...
plus the fact that my supervisor is a total i repeat, TOTAL BITCH!!!!
arugh.. dun even feel like eleborating..
>.<

yesterday i took out my beautiful mizuno 400m spikes shoes
and headed down to the stadium,
gosh how can i ever tell you how much i missed it?
how it feel so rite to be sprinting, even though i am aching all over now.. =p
how my every cell yearn towards that feeling..
how i feel like i've found my long lost love..
i missed you sprinting, the love of my life ..
it was my everything... used to be...
i never knew how much i belong when i sprint till i step
on the track yesterday...
always i refused to think about regrets in thedecision that i have
made in my life and so far i have not regret on anything that i did...
till yesterday...
i regreted, perphaps i really shouldnt gave up..
and only i noe the real reason why i gave up... the ultimate reason...
if i could turn back time, i guess i am willing to give up everything
to pursue my dream...
to beat chee swee li's record to go to thailand to train ..
to continue sprinting...

but time will never turn back, so make the best out of the present...
i'm happy now too, though i cant be the same dawn who was so fast
when she was on track...
well... watever goes i guess...

updates

has been quite a while since i last blog, blame it on the ever busy schedule
lesson plans...
no matter how sick i feel or how tired i am, class stills goes on
and i'll still be standing rite in front of 40 lil kids,
and gettin them to move their asses or do some thinking...
not to mention the naughty lil monkeys.. =p
well all in a day's work....

well at least the term break's coming along....
woohooo..... =)

well had a nice weekend in thailand the last week,
kinda rush but stillmanaged to do some shopping...

was suppose to be there wif elaine but that silly gal
had a passport with an expiry of less than 6 months,
the tickets can be changed or cancel and the only
solution is to change the name of the holder..
so poor lil lion was shock out of his lil skin
when i suddenly pop the idea of goin to thailand wif me...

that was my first time in the new airport in thailand,
much nicer and bigger i would say but its so far away
from the city and the route of the airport bus also changed..

well. we head down to khao sarn to look for cheap accomodation
wat a long ride and the poor lil lion wasnt feeling too well..

as always khao sarn street is so busy and full of life,
juz love the atmosphere there...
as i always say, i love thailand...

well dun have much time now to write on my trip in thailand,
will do so when i hav the time...
=p

Post CNY

What Are Little Girls Made of?

What are little boys made of?
What are little boys made of?
Frogs and snails, And puppy-dogs' tails;
That's what little boys are made of.

What are little girls made of?
What are little girls made of?
Sugar and spice, and all that's nice;
That's what little girls are made of.


Aint it cute? i found this lil nursery rhyme
while i was looking for stuff for my lesson plan..
and it totally describe gals well.. hehehe...

CNY's juz over well, its pretty okie,
coz it's juz eating lots of junk food, lotsof sleeping, bitching,
stressful interrogation by relatives and scary talk by dad... >.<
plus lil bit of ang pao money...]
well thats all that is of my CNY...
plus bitsy weesy bitchin of some of the Hao lian Sai relatives,
Unlce alex to be precise who was yaya-ing about his son
who got into This Nus Special program, trying to slang his ang mo,
and having this perpentual sneer on his face
whenever someone else speaks...
irritating.....

well well thats about it.....

hav to go back to mugging da stupid books
arugh!!!! >.<

and tryin to finish up assignments >.<

the hated rain, storms, lighting and thunder

The dawn rainin...
walks ard the neighbourhood...
sleeplessness...
thoughts whirling...
conclusion???
i hate the storms...
the lightin and the thunder...
maybe its blabble...
but i'm missing ...
u noe wat i miss....
and i want the credits redeemed!!!!
i dun care!!!!!!

sounds spoilt?? i dun care!!!

sounds senseless?? i dun care!!

wat i care about??

u should noe...

a-n-a-l

aNaL....

RecTuM if u prefer...

tHe OthEr enD you could put it as...

AnaL would be juz fine....

watever

Boring!! wAtEvEr...

at least physio test is over n done wif, 2 more assignments n 1 more test
n here comes suckie practicum!!!

BoRinG


WatEveR


PooP!

BlEch!

bOng!

piAnG!

spLaT!


WatEveR...

Contradiction of life

juz managed to start studyin for the test... and being the strict believer in fightin for
work benefits =p i'm takin a break...
heez
sometimes it really amazes mi how time juz speed past without me realising...
it almost the end of my study life and it juz haven hit me yet...
maybe coz i'm still drownin in the midst of test and assignments?

probably i guess...

i'm living in contradiction,
one moment i love my life n is happily contended,
the next moment i feel that i'm missing somethin in life..

confused u said?

hahaha..

someone said to me that i am a free spirit person,
well i guess i am..
sometimes so free spirited that i dun noe where i belong...
and being afraid of commitment to life...
the responsibilities and commitment of 22 yr old scares me,
bloody 'ell scares the shit out of me..

maybe i'm runnin away... but i guess i'm juz so not ready..

or rather maybe i should juz stop comparing myself to the norms
i'm weird probably, by our society standards
weird in my ideals, my believes, my wants...
but yet i guess i wouldnt want to change for anything...
perhaps being weird gives mi a different perspective in life...

sometimes, i guess i am still finding myself...
well...

watever, things will work out....

take a day as it comes....

back to mugging???

>.<

at moments like this....
i miss u best fren!!!!

*sigh*

Shuckie aint it??
i'm havin test on wed and here i am not studyin at all.. and its like almost 1am...
somebody help me... hmm sounds familiar???
*sigh*
i'm procrastinating...
leaving everything to the last last last second...
its the last week of school but there's still zillion tonnes of stuff to be done and not done..
the e learning week was suppose to aid mi in clearin all these shyte but it past by without anything slighty complete..
gosh!!!
*sigh*
i wanna study.. wanna get all the shyte into the lil brain but da mood juz aint there..
instead of studyin i am ventin in my lil world... wif words

*sigh*
i so need to study...
it really shucks that i went for that apreciation dinner, coz it ended so late that i juz am so tired..
but well if i gave my word then i hav to be there...
i juz feel so unable to concentrate.. >.<>_<

yada yada yada...

Yikes!!! Drool!!!!!!!
Outside PS.......... Stoning....

Lil lion's last pic of his nice straight hair

Tada!!!!!!! the kiew mo ah beng!!!!!!!! omg!!! is that PCK??!! look alike?? wahahaha

Scaring all the kids away so that we can steal their kites.. rrrrrrrrggghhhhhhhh!!!

Dawn's the tallest!!!!!!! woooohoooo!! bow all u short lil farts!!!! wahahaha

>.< Back to reality.. sob sob....

RanDoM ThOuGHts

Random Thoughts:

1. Isnt it strange how boredom can make someone go nuts with sian-ness zinking to the max??The helpless-ness experienced when in Dilemma over wat to do or where to go, its juz enuff to hurl u over to the domain of "THE SUCKIE SIAN WORLD ".. >.<

2. movie marathons timed perfectly is definitely the rite cocktail mix... awesome n awesome provided that the movie aint too suckie, well juz as long as it aint stupid movie like THE WIG...

caught Pan's labyrinth first at erm.. gosh i cant remember where?? erm... shyte... oh ya!! VIVO..heheh sorry think i'm gettin senile..its nice, but kinda dark.. fairy tales that's sinister and not as pure and innocent as we always were led to believe...

3. Ghost Tunnel was caught at JP, well its an okie horror, the plot's quite interesting though.. and its no easy feat tryin to juggle nachos wif cheese while hiding behind it during scary scenes..>.<

4. The devil wears prada is quite a nice movie, thankz to the Play machine which allows us to rent it for free... =)

5. surf n sweat... arugh... the surfin's definitely tiring, feel so disappointed for eric...

6. Nice chill out at tangos

7. good friendly touch rugby game at farrer park... i haven been so shag for a long long time..

8. Hard practicality and cruelty is juz a thin lil line apart... is it?

9. idealistic or immaturity?

10. Not ready or refusing to grow up?