Contradiction of life

juz managed to start studyin for the test... and being the strict believer in fightin for
work benefits =p i'm takin a break...
heez
sometimes it really amazes mi how time juz speed past without me realising...
it almost the end of my study life and it juz haven hit me yet...
maybe coz i'm still drownin in the midst of test and assignments?

probably i guess...

i'm living in contradiction,
one moment i love my life n is happily contended,
the next moment i feel that i'm missing somethin in life..

confused u said?

hahaha..

someone said to me that i am a free spirit person,
well i guess i am..
sometimes so free spirited that i dun noe where i belong...
and being afraid of commitment to life...
the responsibilities and commitment of 22 yr old scares me,
bloody 'ell scares the shit out of me..

maybe i'm runnin away... but i guess i'm juz so not ready..

or rather maybe i should juz stop comparing myself to the norms
i'm weird probably, by our society standards
weird in my ideals, my believes, my wants...
but yet i guess i wouldnt want to change for anything...
perhaps being weird gives mi a different perspective in life...

sometimes, i guess i am still finding myself...
well...

watever, things will work out....

take a day as it comes....

back to mugging???

>.<

at moments like this....
i miss u best fren!!!!