Believe Pee Believe

Its gonna be okie...
juz believe... u hav to...

luv Pee luv...

Loves the shopping.... luvs my new shopping kaki.. =p
luvs bart simpson....

Juz so love sitting on a wet patch... ya rite.. wahaha...

The proposal was great.. super funny...
luvs Ryan Renolds....

and.. Sandra Bullock... =)

Its more than that ya noe....

shld so get the action figure

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Luv the breakfast wif family...

Luv the wedge i bought...

Luv the talk with the Dad...

Luv the possibility of car...

still praying hard... its gonna be alrite n fine...

poor grace with the fringe...

ouch

ouch

ouch

It Hurts....

I need a plaster...

It Hurts Pee... It Hurts

so u think i'm shallow...
That i am who u think i am?
u dun even really noe me.......
I am juz that simple....
nuthin more....
It hurts.. u probbably dun even noe... how affected i am....

arughhhhhhhhhh..........

My Fave Monster

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afraid worried paranoid....

>.<"

arugh..........

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Dun like that stupid dream that day!

pee....

arugh......

20 days to go....

20 more days ... till knowing?

good or bad?

dun really know....

Choices

Thanks for the honesty and assurance...
I must be the one who makes the choice in my life.. nobody should decides for me..
The talk really made me felt glad...
calm me down alot...
be strong... u can always pick up ur life again...

Clueless

Clueless

dumb

Muz be dumb... how can it not be found out?
to accept the fraud? n not strive to find the truth?

How can lies b so easy?

y the need to?

dissapointin

Why Peee why?

sick... thats wat i feel now....
sick in the pits of my stomach....

how did it happen again???

Why did u resist?

now its another one more...

so worried abt u...

wats gonna happen?

MIA PIGS

hates it when Ppl MIA....
wats so difficult abt returning a msg?
duh.....
>.<

Feels so pissed....
Watever...........................

maybe i was wrong abt it.......

Maybe sis is rite.............................

Arugh..........................................................

how can i begin to start sleepin??
it feels so unreal to me.. so surreal..
could it be real?/
be true???
how could it be?


pls be strong...
be very strong..
i always believe that god puts obstacle in front of us so that we'll get over it, learn something n emerge stronger...
pls believe...

hang in there thru it...

u muz
u hav to!
think of ur family if nuthing...

b strong

i'll be praying for u...
u'll b alrite...
be strong coz u'll pick up life where u left it..
i noe its hard.. how can i begin to imagine rite?
be strong luv...

piecing it together

She picked up the piece of jig-saw.. and stared for the longest time...

Where would that piece fit into?

in the midst of thousands little pieces each with their distinct unbending twist and turns..

How would she find the perfect fit?

Suddenly, She spied this unique piece that carries the possibility of fitting into hers.. creating a first bits of the picture?

Star Glazing

She sat glazing at the stars... as if somehow she could penetrate the infinite Darkness and see the space, distance and the difference in time between the burning balls of gas or what we knows as the starry stars...

Has she err? Her thoughts were like a lone coconut adrift in the immense blue of the sea...
Has the coconut found the beach that it sought after with its soul...
or has it gotten itself intoxicated with the uncertainity and freedom of drifting along where the tide carries...

lousy

i feel real lousy...

know what... i feel really tired.. sometimes it really feel as if the ratio of the effort put in seems to tip so steeply.

sometimes it feels like *** is the sun in our solar system... and i am one of the many moons spinning around pluto...

trying to do the best i could, relflecting with my might all the rays that reaches me... doing my best to shine and light up the night...

when i am not even the source of the light ... i'm juz a rock reflecting the light that bounces off me..

thats us isn't it?

i never asked for much... juz need more light from the sun... to warm me up.. making me shine like a star...

too much to ask for????

suddenly as i was looking thru my posts of the past year and a half..
i wonder what will i do if i lose this huge part of my life?
seeing jess breaking apart after her loss.. losing herself in misery ...
will i see myself in that position?
i cant even imagine...
someone told me i am too dependant.. but how am i to get un-dependant?

fear anybody??

today i feel that my fear is getting closer by a step...

that that i dread most...

i am afraid even to think but the fear keeps invading my thoughts

how can i reassure myself when probably there's never any happily ever after in the real world?

that i so deeply wan to believe that it will work out...

from the moment that i know i fear..

till this moment i still fear...

i know that there's nuthin that u can do..

i know and understand...

but i fear...

sounds retarded i know..

feels like i am spinning in a circle...

my fear is real... and it huants me...

i had a dream

i had a dream last nite... that that someone left me for another place...
in that haze, i felt so lost, like i din know how to act or do..
like my soul juz went missing.
perphaps deep inside me i am always afraid that that person will leave me behind..
maybe no matter of what words were said to reassure or comfort, the fear is real and deeply rooted.
somehow that feeling's still haunting me beyond the dream spilling over into the day..
probably thats why i am writing this entry.
i am so afraid of being left behind and forgotten.. having to pull myself and move on wif life...

i know why the fear is in me.. because of the bliss and happiness that i am in...
that i can wake up everyday smiling knowing that i wan nothing more.. that everything is perfect..
but somehow the bliss makes me more afraid...i know that probably ppl ard me will say,that's thinkin too much..
maybe..
but the fact that it could happen in the recent future makes me scare...
i dun know what will i do if i have to face it...
of where will i get the courage to move on with life even though i know time will force me to move on...
mayhaps thats the reason why i am afraid of thinking about the future...

This web weaved by the araignée d'amour has indeed ensnare moi in the silks of steel much deeper that any ever had in la vie du mon

yet i will never choose another even if the path i have to take is the one i never want to be on.