i had a dream

i had a dream last nite... that that someone left me for another place...
in that haze, i felt so lost, like i din know how to act or do..
like my soul juz went missing.
perphaps deep inside me i am always afraid that that person will leave me behind..
maybe no matter of what words were said to reassure or comfort, the fear is real and deeply rooted.
somehow that feeling's still haunting me beyond the dream spilling over into the day..
probably thats why i am writing this entry.
i am so afraid of being left behind and forgotten.. having to pull myself and move on wif life...

i know why the fear is in me.. because of the bliss and happiness that i am in...
that i can wake up everyday smiling knowing that i wan nothing more.. that everything is perfect..
but somehow the bliss makes me more afraid...i know that probably ppl ard me will say,that's thinkin too much..
maybe..
but the fact that it could happen in the recent future makes me scare...
i dun know what will i do if i have to face it...
of where will i get the courage to move on with life even though i know time will force me to move on...
mayhaps thats the reason why i am afraid of thinking about the future...

This web weaved by the araignée d'amour has indeed ensnare moi in the silks of steel much deeper that any ever had in la vie du mon

yet i will never choose another even if the path i have to take is the one i never want to be on.