asking for it??

I muz be asking for it...

to put myself in this situation..

not that its bad but somehow i juz couldnt leave you alone...

that few days that i succeed in remaining aloof and not keepin contact..

i juz kept thinkin of you in odd moments...

not in the heart breaking upset kinda way..

juz wondering and reminiscing...

maybe i'm kinda loser in that way..

but i juz decided that wat others think dun matter..

I dun want to force myself to do something that i dun want to..

my choice my consequences...

I'll let go at my own time and pace...

same old

I do think of u.. N I miss u...
But I'm learnin to move on...

Moving away from Pee Moving away

I began my first step of moving on....

It doesnt affect me pee it doesnt>>

Not a lil bit...

coz pee dun care shit abt me....

so why should i?

n dun check on me either... It dun concern u...

Hah How's that for an attitude! =p

Will try to move on pee

It seemed so easy to juz joke and laugh about silly stuff..

when I left, my heart tore...

I should give up that hope, no matter how slim it is...

I should move on, juz be ur fren...

i miss pee i miss....

I will try my best to leave and move on...

Its driving me nuts...

Hates it when i get dissapointed...

Why give hopes when none is coming forth?

Why make it harder for others?

WHy?

Move..

Maybe i should really learn to move on...

To learn to let go of things...

now that things seemed to be fine or at least goin on okie...


It's probably time I walk alone...

Learn to be by myself

Juz me against the world..

Juz me...

DAWN's GONNA BE DEAD...

I wanna DIE......


Life's meaningless anyway...

Out of morphine, out of pee

gosh.......

Its like a repeated cycle...

Help!

I've done all i could..

and its still the same...

I noe that i am insignififcant..

ARUGH!!!!!!!!!!

Juz wanna die..

Let me die in peace...

Haven felt so bad for so long............

wanna juz die in my bed...

I know that the relief that i am waiting for will never come....

I'm gonna die in pain..

Morphine's out.. the supply wun turn up...

My body's so numb from the pain....

I wanna slp in peace!!!

PEACE!!!'

Should juz die, then i'll hav the peace i want .. Forever....

why bother pee why?

I really dun noe why i bother...

why am i still not letting go...

why am i lettin myself get so affected?

why am i getting so upset?

I've never got out of the hole...

I'm still trap inside...

Lost pee loss

I'm at loss...
Dun Noe what to say or do...
There's nothin i can do.. Nothing at all..
Nothing to ease or lessen it...


Only by being a rock that'll always remains stable, constant and exist no matter what happens...


Numbered Days...
The seconds dripping away...

blag!!! pile of shit

so bogged down with work
n i cant believed tat i'm actually bloggin instaed of doin work..
but i juz feel so tired from it.. Arugh!



somebody said somethin anal to me last nite...

n I LASHED out at that ass with some nasty funky shiet...

too bad for him that i was already so fuck up when i heard it..
NOPE not gonna appologise.. like i said too bad..


screw the world!

blag!!!!!!

Druggie Dawn

Juz had my MORPHINE Dose... Arhh... It Feels great..

I'm High On it..

I'm a screw up Druggie...

Medic Medic!!!

I'm in need of morphine...
The need for relief is so great that it invades every single cell of my composition..

Dormantize ur volcano

sometimes we go through life meeting really anal people who juz seemed to be nasty and go out their way to make things as difficult for u as possible...

U feel ur anger eruptin, u juz wanna fuck them up and give them a trashing,
but sometimes in life pee that is not possible...

u've got to learn to release the anger in another way, u cant go through life blowing up like active volcano all the time..

I noe its hard, so much easier said rite? but sometimes we've juz gotta learn, we dun hav a choice...

learn to make life easier for urself..
its not worth the trouble for the sake of lashing out at someone..
you probably know it deep down...

心里还蛮难过的。。。 在想那件事吗？别人又怎么样会懂对吗？ 没人能帮你。。。
只能在半夜里一个人承受。。。

What should i do pee what should i do?

some how, i dun really know how to say what i felt...

maybe someone's playin a trick on me...

even if all was a lie, i'll still appreciate the effort put in it...

but, i noe it probably ain't...

dun even noe what to do now...

juz stone, act normal...

what can be said?

what should be said?

Will do as promised...

with only one request...

pls be fulfiled...

drowning

I'm Drowning...

Know what..
Forget it!
I deserve BETTER!

Life can and should only get better!

I DUN LIKE THIS!

I dun like this...

Make things clear ya...

I will take it well..

dun leave things hanging...

I absolutely loathe this kind of situation.

Juz be god darn up front about it!

ASS!