I love Tim sum dollies and the chopstick!!!

Glitch

perphaps its reliance...
reliance on that steady comfort....
easing my pressure from work, acompanying thru my bored moments

taking refuge from it like a matter of fact..

yet now the absence of it

pushes me to be more independant in handling life and its downs..

learning to release thru myself...

from something that i perphaps took for granted...

I realised that it actually is an indulgence...

a luxury that i own..

maybe i juz detest that waiting...

>.<

probably its some glitch in my system..

or i am so used to it that i cant seemed to adjust to it..

well time will aid in my adjustment..

it have to.. =p

okie! i'll juz come out straight n say it,

yes, i miss that skinny crossbreed of a lion n monkey!

fiend = unreasonable parent

An irritating and unreasonable parent is the cause of my insomnia..
u would think that someone in the same line as i am would understand the situation of teachers better but unfortunately no...

super duper overdue thai pics

Little Sneaky Guy

There's a little cloud of gloom hanging over my head. This Little sneaky guy known as apprehension lurking about. Sowing seeds of his disquiet... Doing what he does best.
Uneasiness starts falling in tiny droplets from the gloom above...

Start of the Suffering

it has been a tiring first few weeks of school... haven been sleeping well.
could it be due to my self induced stress or
is there juz too many things to be done and too little time.. probably the latter..
No matter how i rest , my body never feels refreshed..
maybe i need to visit a shrink..
guess work is boring me down.. i dun even write anymore let alone draw..
I feel really tired and drained... well have to keep plodding on i guess
Life ya' noe.. =p
if there isnt such things call sch hols i'll probably check into IMH soon..
No shit...
well on the bright side its juz abt 2 and half years more to go... grind and bear it DaWn!!!
the fact that all my kakis are in the AM and
i was so cheated to be in the PM, makes this year pretty lonely.. i feel so isolated.. i dun see them much too..
i feel really cheated about the pathetic periods assigned to me for PE.
i juz dun understand why would they assigned non PE trained teachers for PE who cant even teach PE decently and let me take dumb shit lame subjects like Health Ed n Social studies
feels so under utilized.
Maybe at the bottom of it i am unhappy with my work... coz i juz cannot align my personal beliefs with the school's. when they dumped irrelevant subjects rather than what i was trained for to teach and expect with me to produce results. i would of course work hard for the students but i hate it when they are forcing me.. or rather AA.
i dun think i feel happy ever since i started to work officially in this school.
i cant remember the last time that i laugh. Lil Lion has been like my buoy in this sea of pressure.. his stable presence and company helped me stay afloat.. i really dun noe how things will be like in the 2 months that he wont be here.
i reflected on myself some time back that i should change my attitude and be more positive to work.. well i am now i dun hate my work anymore but ultimately i know that i dun feel happy.
i am drowning and losing myself to this mundane life..

sounds so gloomy...
Is it juz me or is everyone like me?

maybe if one day i get depression.. it'll probably be because of my work environment... its not the kids its the school

and this is juz the start of the suffering..

X Mas

mERRY Christmas =

Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium

My Self created Toy in the wonder emporium! =)

Eric's Picture

Juz caught "Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium" atTM.

I love it juz like a lil kid would do if u put me in his emporium..

probably my inner child still exist strongly... =p

I love the lil monkey who always wanna hug.. even though he's a lil ugly but there this pitiful look on his face that draws me... but Lil Lion juz find him creepy.. hehe..

The amazing bouncing balls juz amaze me with the colours.. The vibrancy of the shop was great.. there were so many things happening at the same time.. all the toys there made me wish that i was there...

Even though i felt that the ending was kinda anti climax but i still enjoyed it...

my fave character is defintely the lil encentric kid Eric.. and his wonder hat collection..

and his way of talkin that was way too old for him... juz simply tickles me..

call me childish or easily amaze, "Mr magorium" is a happy and enjoyable movie...

Dawn's Daemon

Hey Ro saw ur post on ur daemon so i decided to see wats my.. hehehe..

Tribute to Iris Chang

It was a chance recall of the documentary Nanking that lead me to search on iris chang..
The renowed author of the best selling book "The Rape of Nanking : the fogotten holocust"
The recollection of news of her death a few years ago...
The sad news of her depression led suicide...
It is tragic that such a talented writer, capable and humane woman would choose to end her life at a young age of 36...
She who brought the forgotten massacre of Nanking to the attention of the world. A extraordinary woman who travelled thousand of miles back to the country of her ancestors, china, to collect personal recounts, diaries of surviving victims and doing research and collecting evidences to present the truth, the horrors and the courage during that terrible period.

I delicate this post to Iris Chang as a tribute to this extraordinary author.

i strongly recommend her book the Rape of Nanking... it is a shocking and gripping recount of history.
i am also looking forward to watchin the documentary.

Finally japan can no longer continue to ignore and deny the atrocities they had commited and bury the victims of the Nanking massacre in history anymore.

Pixel add ons.... >.<

Harry potter pixel face that i attempted...

my first pixel house ... =)

really am very fascinated by pixel art... but its juz kinda tedious......

hopefully there'll be more artwork from moi coming up...

RaMdOm thoughts:

* ball is round... soccer is darn unpredictable... sometimes, taico taico lousy team also can score..

moral of the story for bettin.. never be greedy... or i should have blah blah..'well if i knew i will have become a millionaire....

* stupid tumlet!! took so long to deliver my sundae... >.<.... arugh!!

*i love holidays!!!

*Lists of undesirable personnel: Fat Tofu! stout AA! arugh!!!

*Cant wait to... play with my toys!!! hehehe...

*running makes me feel awesome...

*cant believe i am typing all these junk...

WatEver

Pixel people... >.<

Been pretty bored.. so i decided to try my hand at pixel art.. well taadaaa...
my first 2 pixel people... >.< kinda ugly,, but i guess it'll do for now...

My MY MY!!! Slyvanian Family!! collection!!

Haven really been updating...

well din really do anything interesting but...........
i finally own a slyvanian Family house!!!!!! and of course i bought beds and lil squirrels and dining sets and sofas.....
gosh!! am so excited!! juz cant wait to start playin wif it!! hehehee...

My House!!!!! Lil Lion bought it for me!!!! MuaCks!!! hehehe.....

My Furbanks family!!!! =)

Old sketch...

I found an old sketch that i drew when i was in poly ... so decided to upload it.. =p

this is how it looks when i digitally coloured it.. damn workin wif a mouse was hard.. =p

.......

dEpRessEd...
it keeps running about in my head...
feelin lost coz there's no where or one that i can pour it out...
no one understands... shruggin it off...
sometimes....... sometimes...
all i need is......................................................%#$^&()(^#
couldnt face the mirror.... it overwhelms me...
steppin out of the house is a struggle....
confidence is a ghost....



feelin emotional...
i dun wan to... but i cant control...










am i selfish for holdin on tightly...
for not wantin to let go...
restrictin n limitin...
denying....
maybe....

Entries... =p

children's day!! yipee!! not that it means anythin more than a day off at work for me..
hehehe....

things are hectic at work... sometimes it seems like all i do after work is to drop dead n sleep from all that fatigue...
but i guess although the lil Bugs r irritating they do have their cute side tat makes u wanna burst out laughin at times that somehow cheer u up...

=p

i had a thought the other day and here's how it goes...

A Leader does not get respect like its a godgiven gift..
He has to earn it.. respect is earned through your behavior, ur treatment and
handling of people who are under your supervision...
to treat others with respect and vice versa...
To be fair inspite of personal perjudice and opinions


but sadly the truth is that people ride in the name of leaders and commands you to to listen to them riding on the fact that they are the BOSS...
Pushing you Riding on the fact that they are the BOSS...
Telling you in the face that it doesnt matter what ever your reasons are or should there be a need to listen to your reasons and explanation... coz he is THE BOSS so... whatever he says counts and u juz listen.. and that is nothing that you can do.. juz becoz he is THE BOSS...


Sad huh...
that the reality ...
but maybe meeting these bad leaders will help u to be stronger as you move in your life...
coz we will juz have to be positive in life.. and NEVER let people like these pull u down...

SHE

She..
She who thought, who always felt independent of regimentation and manipulation...
who prides herself on the freedom to decide the path she takes...
got sucked into the swirl of conformity

The suffocation of the opressive environment finally took their toll on she,
She whose iron hard will crumbled and succumbed.. yielding to the norm..

She who began her conformity to the system...

She who lost She...

She who became Them...

She who was no more...

Sheeps

A sheep i am not
Then why do i move to the call of the herder
the beckon of the wild lush green grass sings to me
deep in my soul the instinct to run , the free bounding to the wild
Screams out....
yet...
i move..
to the call of the herder...
Hidden in the midst of Sheeps...
Blind following sheeps that lets the herder does the thinking..
Blindly listening to that Overmind that decides for them...
Deeply convinced that that's all there is to the world and nothing can be better
than the comfort of captivity with no need for individual thoughts or for survival
Profoundly convinced in their limited warp mind that every single being
should be part of their colony...

Listen to the overmind... she who decides n think for us...
*Chant the sheeps

spoozzzzz

been pretty caught up with work i guess to have much time to blog....
kinda miss the school days where bloggin's a thing to do as n when i like.. =p


actually life now is pretty okie...
now that i'm learning to cope with the demands of work..
though my lil kids still drives mi crazy every now n then...

>.<

weekends is definitely somethin i look forward to esp.. lazing ard
n slackin wif the lil lion...
though it's really doin nuthin,, its real nice to not have to do anything
other than eatin watchin tvn reading... nitez out with lil lion's great too
esp a late nitez movie plus dinner...
eatin at the village and heading out to iguana for a drink was awesome...
juz a nice quiet nitez out for the 2 of us.... it was nice with juz the 2 of us...


bought my new T20 sony camera so looking forward
to have more pics up on da blog..
the big day of the 23rd yr of my life's gonna be crashin on me soon.. scary i say..
do i feel ready to shoulder the responsibilities and burdens that comes with the Big 23??
not really... still feel pretty much like how i was in poly.... >.<
but reality 's still reality cant change anythin abt it...
still i wan my cake no matter wat! =p

work work work

work ...
adult life...
sometimes it really seem so unreal to me...
hiaz...
everyday its the same,
wake up , go to school, mark books,
do admin work, assemble,
start of work..
end of sch..

what happen to my life?
i've lost the essence of it... i cant go and play touch as n when i like ..
i dun have the energy to run like i use to...
i am losing everything that i enjoy..
i am losing myself...
guess weekend's the onli time that i look forward to...
but i am always so tired that slacking with lil lion is all i wanna do..
stay home n watch tv do e record...
maybe i am still learning to get use to it.. but that doesnt mean that i like it...
in fact i hate it... absolutely ....
i miss my life...


sports and everything...

>.<