DAWN's GONNA BE DEAD...

I wanna DIE......


Life's meaningless anyway...

Out of morphine, out of pee

gosh.......

Its like a repeated cycle...

Help!

I've done all i could..

and its still the same...

I noe that i am insignififcant..

ARUGH!!!!!!!!!!

Juz wanna die..

Let me die in peace...

Haven felt so bad for so long............

wanna juz die in my bed...

I know that the relief that i am waiting for will never come....

I'm gonna die in pain..

Morphine's out.. the supply wun turn up...

My body's so numb from the pain....

I wanna slp in peace!!!

PEACE!!!'

Should juz die, then i'll hav the peace i want .. Forever....

why bother pee why?

I really dun noe why i bother...

why am i still not letting go...

why am i lettin myself get so affected?

why am i getting so upset?

I've never got out of the hole...

I'm still trap inside...

Lost pee loss

I'm at loss...
Dun Noe what to say or do...
There's nothin i can do.. Nothing at all..
Nothing to ease or lessen it...


Only by being a rock that'll always remains stable, constant and exist no matter what happens...


Numbered Days...
The seconds dripping away...

blag!!! pile of shit

so bogged down with work
n i cant believed tat i'm actually bloggin instaed of doin work..
but i juz feel so tired from it.. Arugh!



somebody said somethin anal to me last nite...

n I LASHED out at that ass with some nasty funky shiet...

too bad for him that i was already so fuck up when i heard it..
NOPE not gonna appologise.. like i said too bad..


screw the world!

blag!!!!!!

Druggie Dawn

Juz had my MORPHINE Dose... Arhh... It Feels great..

I'm High On it..

I'm a screw up Druggie...

Medic Medic!!!

I'm in need of morphine...
The need for relief is so great that it invades every single cell of my composition..

Dormantize ur volcano

sometimes we go through life meeting really anal people who juz seemed to be nasty and go out their way to make things as difficult for u as possible...

U feel ur anger eruptin, u juz wanna fuck them up and give them a trashing,
but sometimes in life pee that is not possible...

u've got to learn to release the anger in another way, u cant go through life blowing up like active volcano all the time..

I noe its hard, so much easier said rite? but sometimes we've juz gotta learn, we dun hav a choice...

learn to make life easier for urself..
its not worth the trouble for the sake of lashing out at someone..
you probably know it deep down...

心里还蛮难过的。。。 在想那件事吗？别人又怎么样会懂对吗？ 没人能帮你。。。
只能在半夜里一个人承受。。。

What should i do pee what should i do?

some how, i dun really know how to say what i felt...

maybe someone's playin a trick on me...

even if all was a lie, i'll still appreciate the effort put in it...

but, i noe it probably ain't...

dun even noe what to do now...

juz stone, act normal...

what can be said?

what should be said?

Will do as promised...

with only one request...

pls be fulfiled...

drowning

I'm Drowning...

Know what..
Forget it!
I deserve BETTER!

Life can and should only get better!

I DUN LIKE THIS!

I dun like this...

Make things clear ya...

I will take it well..

dun leave things hanging...

I absolutely loathe this kind of situation.

Juz be god darn up front about it!

ASS!

YADAA YADAA SAME OLD SHIET!!!





Wat the hell that Nonchalance's for?



juz b coz aku dun get angry doesnt mean shiet okay!!!!



boring... ooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhh U feel BORRRINNNGGGG la izzit?



NO MOODDD>>>> OHHHHHHHH IIIII SSEEEEEE U NABEI PIECE OF CHICKEN ROTTEN TESTICLES!





SINCE boring y dun go try fuck spider, i'm sure it'll b so fucking entertainin!!!



anyway, Mat is dumb rite?? ooops oopsie... how can i forget?? its bloody hell brainless... u low life mat-reb!!!!!



wat??! u so eager to try my karate chop cum kick and stuff ur bloody asshole with tonnes of spiky DURIANS rite???



AWWWWWW.... I'm so so so god damn fucking nice that i'll gladly SHOVE it up ur screw up Anal.. oops i forgot, u have two!!!!! One on the dick face of urs and one at the bottom with ur dickl!!!!!!!



Alamak!!! means u r juz TOTALLY A DICK!!!!!



aiya.. forgot about ur stupidity, Dick = PENIS...



Forget it, doubt that u low life intelligence understand what it means!!!!!



BORRING??!! ohh go fuck some low life mina la!!!!!



then again... both u kind of low life probably has problem inserting it... coz too DUMB!!!!

TAKE That AND SHOVE UR LEMBEK DICK UP UR OWN ASS!!!

Anger is something that should not be kept inside and cradled...
Let it go...

Why affect yourself for the entire day?

Dawn shout out:

I Love My CAVEMAN! =p

haaahaaahaaa.....

loss for words

I saw this post off a secondary sch fren who had a shotgun baby, and i was really touched..

This was what he wrote...

My daughter is the best thing that ever happened to me, although her birth wasn't planned... most babies aren't planned anyway. People say that my daughter is an accident, but I want my daughter to know that she was precious enough for me to live against all odds. People watch their kids grow up... I grew up with my kid, we are the most special childhood friends and there is no word to describe my love for her...


wow... I'm loss for words...

Why Hide pee why?

maybe i'm upset, maybe its PMS...

somehow i was affected by that gesture...

juz dun show it to me at all in the first place...

y cover? y hide?

u think i'll make a scene if anythin goes wrong?

i can lose everythin but i always have my dignity...

i will take my choices in my stride...

i wun pry...

maybe i should really think abt it...

if it is worthwhile...

to take a gamble...

PMS is probably makin me worse...

YOU!

I loathe you... you who screwed up one of the most important days of my life.

Shouldnt have even made the effort..

cannot believed that u made me lost control of my emotions that way!

U r not forgiven!

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