Snapshots

Yummy!!!!

DUNKIN DONUTS!!! WE NEED THEM IN SPORE!!!!!!

i love this sweet grandma of mine... she's practically my world.. =)

yes yes its da old rich man and his 3 galfrens.. wahahahah

Regina and me..

Grace and Elaine, moi sisters... ya ya i noe we dun look alike at all... i've heard it like not much juz a million times =p

Most of the cousins... gals i mean.. dunno wat happen to the guys.. probably slackin somewhere..

The cousins Melody, me, michelle and da biatch Alicia... juz bargin into the pic >.<

Photo shoot @ JB

i was juz looking thru the past few entries of my blog...
arugh.. how long has it been since i last bitch??
ages ago... gosh halleluya!! coz i'm turnin into this angel?!!
yikes!!!!!
no way... dawn dearest is definitely not an angel, not a devil maybe but Not an angel..
ya ya i noe tonnes of u fucka ppl will start a online petition to remove mi if i start declaring amy anglicness.. =p
so to prevent that massive hoohaaa i shall spare u that
=p

well on sunday
yes it was a sunday that i had to wake up super duper early!!! like 7am???!!
juz for a Photo shoot...
noooo!! if its some model photo shoot i definitely wun mind =p heheh
but behold its a family photo shoot, not juz family but mega family..
yes yes everyone one from my grandma to my lil irritating baby sis...
i was in such a haste and hurry to get myself ready from bathing to blowing my hair to putting on my make up and dressing up... gosh it was horrid...
why go thru all that effort???
HELLOO??!!
firstly It's a god damn photo shoot!!! u wana a blown up picture of my family with me looking like some indon maid???? noo way!! i hav already suffered for 22 years of my life growin up wif ppl who looks so skinny and pretty!!! goodness noe wat my parents did to screw up to give mi this horrible ugly fat junk of a body!!!

yes yes!!!! my whole family's tall and slim except for poor lil me, i wun even be surprised if i am adopted...
oops??could it really be???

Nay!!!!! kidding =p

i look juz like an indon maid next to my snowy white sisters, i'm shit color.. arughh...

secondly, gosh i juz get too easily distracted, secondly, i will be seeing all my aunts uncles, cousins there and who in her rite mind will wan to look like a complete mess?? plus the fact that i am definitely the shortest lil fart there excluding regina (moi baby sis)
arughhh!!! so i'll hav to look good
plus the fact that my bitch of a cousin Alicia is goona turn up, wat better motivation is there for mi to dress up...

=p

i had to rush from hall spending money on callin a cab n rush all the way back expecting everyone to be ready and go... but??? as i expected in a way that as usual there is an uproar in my house with every single one of them in their personal whirlwind, rushing to put on make up , last min trim of their eye brows, looking for shoes ironing their clothes... gosh!!!
my house's like a war zone...
well.. and urs truly join in that madness as well ... hehehe....

finally after making my poor dad wait for ages, all the babes are ready to go...
and making our way to the customs,
guess wat i found out??!!!

For the fucking first time in my life!!! i have to fill up a white form to cross the border
WTH??!!
oops why?? coz i forget that i trash my malaysian citizenship for a singaporean one..
cant blame mi ya i've been holdin a malaysian passport for the pass 21 ++ years of my life..
well No regrets at all, why would i wanan go back to that shit hole.... when its not even home??
singapore's shity as well no arguements from me abt that but its Home that makes all the difference in the world...

and i thot that once we cross the border we'll head to the studio and wham bang!! taadaaa
done with the shoot and i'll be back to my lovely country...

But NOOO!!! i was deceived!!!!
yes Misled into thinkin that the appointment for the shoot was in the morning!!!!!
and guess wat they did??? yes they all went to have bat ku teh..
wth??!!!!
and noe wat time is the appoinment???!!!
1pm??
then why the hell do i have to be uo so early??!!!
arughhh... i'll never understand wat my dad's thinkin...

roll call, 1, 2 ,3
*waiting*
eyy!!! where's family no.4???

guess where they were??
sleepin at home
yes its my bitch of a cousin,alicia's family
and why are they not there??
ohhhhhh those pampered lil royal arses wanted to sleep more

wat the hell is wrong with that fucking family, wat gives them such special rites?? juz becoz they have larger arses????
assholes..

okie okie
i am juz nasty coz i was made to be there early when they dun have to
plus i really dun like them
and...
the most important thing is
This is my blog i cant say watever i want, if u dun like it, then too bad...

well the shoot took so so long
or should i say the preperation for the shoot every one getting crazy puttin on make up..
and i was turn into da make up artist of the day.. well i dun mind doin it for michelle n melody and audrey.. i like them.. and styling uncle eric's hair (sheesh,,, he's balding) coz he wanan look good.. hahah and max's

it was fun to joke ard with my sisters and michelle, melody, audrey, jon, jeremy
note the ppl not on the list are.... no.1 alicia ooi.. well her "royal highness was tryin to be friend;ly talkin holdin moi arms jokin but sliding evil comments to elaine *my sis*... even though she din say anything nasty to me, but hey!! u dun mess wif my sisters!!!! so we play along and ignore her at selected critical times in conversations... and mega bitch about her
i'm sorry dearest all if i confused u but it's a game that has been goin on since we were kids..
well the rest are arron, andrey n lydia, well ppl in their family juz dun really speak with the rest of the cousin... so too bad...
well too think of it its juz andrey comin to me and tellin me about how he is taller than me.. and i had to break the truth to him, few more yrs maybe....
he was making so much noise that i told him to shut up till he pass the puberty stage..
=p hahahaha....

the shoot was quite funny though, posing and smiling till my mouth nearly crack...

by the time we finish the shoot and wait 1 hr b4 they are ready, to choosing the photos we want, to settling the bill???? arughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

it took forever for us to get home

well the plus point of this day is i get to see my grandma and buyinh DUNKIN DONUTS!!!!!!


DUNKIN DONUTS DUNKIN DONUTS DUNKIN DONUTS

=(

suckie!! school starts.. and here it all goes again...
no more hols.. =(

Base Jumping

Have you ever wondered how do people who do base jumping feel the moment juz b4 they take off??
Exhilaration?
Surge of adrenaline?
fear of possible death?
anticipation of the pleasure of the jump?

isn't it bizarre that people actually do things that has the possiblity of getting them hurt yet love it and do it with zest?
hurling yourself into a something whole heartedly even if you have the knowledge of the negative possibility...

Perhaps life is not experienced if you have never attempt to do something plainly based on following your heart regardless of returns...

Then Maybe, that's part of wat being alive is all about...

Updates on this hols and the year and Day Out @ Zoo

Have not been updatin my blog on the stuff i have done using words... so now i shall..
well to summarise my hols, well for the first time i actually stayed in spore without travelling, but yet in the midst of the slacking and boredom, it is quite meaningful and fruitful.. the time that i could have been travelling, i spent it with enjoyment and pleasure in the company of significant people such as frens, family and the lil lion.
had nice experiences doing stuff that i have never done before... =)
and the best of course was the understanding and support from the lovely frens on my choice and decisions specials thankz to ro, yuen, elaine my dear sister, banu, jeslyn, cheryl and suzi ya la , yes its u babi although u r always laughin at mi!! hahaha =p...

time really flies and its another new year, i look forward to more nice and sweet stuff in this new year!!! =)well looking back on the past year, i have no regrets or rather it was one of the most amazing year of my life.. thankz to the people who made it so... i have met lots of awesome people who broaden my horizons and went wif mi to places that i have never been before..
i guess i really learn much more about myself this past 1 year, i grew up, i know what i want and what's for me...
and i noe that 1 day i'll pack my stuff and backpack the world for a year to see the world, to see the beauty, the ugliness, the compassion, the freedom and much more that i could not describe in mere words, of this world...
and to help and contribute to the best of my abilities to those much less fortunate...
i am not some noble saintly shit ass of a person on any holy crusades to help the world,
i juz feel that i am so fortunate to be born in a place that i have no worries about food or safety and am able to live in comfort so shouldnt i at least give some to those childern who are not as fortunate??

i do not know where life will take mi, sometimes it'll bring you on the path u least expect to, but i noe that at least , that is the direction i wanna head...
but i'll juz adapt wherever the path of fate directs mi coz u'll never know..
=)
yeah..as wise men always say be flexible.. =p
hehehe...


enuff of the emo relfection crap....

wat i did today was great!! well it wasnt anything amazing but it was the company that makes it awesome...
it was nice to be the child that i always am, dashing off to look at animals, to demand an ice cream form the "dad" =p hahhaa... to watch in wonder at the performance of the animals, holding hands feeling happy, snapping wif my camera like nuts, laughin at silly animals, doing hilarious poses for the camera...
it almost made me forget that i am goin on 23 this year being an adult...
23... sometimes it really scares me, coz i really dun feel 23, i dun even feel 20 so how could i feel 23??
i am afraid sometimes, of being push even against my will to be an age that is far too unreal to me an age that i dun feel that i am...
its not that i am refusing to grow up,
i juz dun feel it...
perhaps i am juz weird...
at times i even forget the age till people remind mi, strange isnt it??

well enuff of all this emotional stuff.. yikes >.<

hahaha

yes we went to the ZOO!!!!!=p
Simba looking left looking rite checkin for people....
No One Around!!! and he take a PEE!!!!! in the bushes yikes u disgusting boy!!! hahahah
Kidding!! =p
Who's taller??!!!! Simba or giraffe???!!!
shesshhh!!!! dun wake the sleepin lions!! or we'll lunch!! =p
Lil Lion and da babe!!
The Longest tongue award goes to... *drum roll*
Lion and the prey??!!
Tryin to figure where the hell are we... hehehe

Kangaroo wannabe??
Simba and his long lost brother??!!
*Tink Tink Tink* Round 1
Help!!!!!!!
Kinda seem like he's enjoyin it?? hahahah *evil grin*
Tryin to get some muscles to fight it out wif the Tapirs... =p
I lost!! =(

Timbre

New Year Party!!! at shilton n jen's place =)

Cyber connection

haven been updatin the past weeks plus... been out of touch wif the cyber world due to my faulty modem and screw up wireless connection at home...
well let mi try to recall wat hav i been doin??
hmm...
hmm..
erm... shyte..
laggy memory..
let mi see..

erm.. feedin simba, feedin simba and err feeding simba..
man my dear bottomless pit.. hhahah haven seen anyone who can eat so much n get hungry so fast.. hehehe =p

xmas eve was quite okie,,, went to town to catch nite in the musuem wif simba then head out to watch death note 2 wif the frens...
kira as usual was cool n good looking, that awesome appealing sinister smile and his stare... and that towerin intelligence... totally blew mi away... it sucks that he had to die in the end.. but well i guess its fair since L died too...
but my fave character was still Rem the death god of missa...

cool to the max i juz love the animation......=)

went fishin dat b4 yesterday... yup!! i went fishing but din manage to catch any coz i guess the bait was too soft so it juz end up been tear away by the damn fishes b4 i could hook them.. well the only thing i gain was learning how to cast the fishin line..
=)

sitting next to lil lion and lookin out at the lights coming from town was great...

hmm let mi think wat else did i do??
oh ya watch curse of the golden flower.. ppl let mi tell u!!! its an awesome movie the colours, shots, and acting is superb... this is definitely that should win oscar..
impressive!!

and movie marathon of sky high and final Destination ... it was a record when lil lion finshed sky high without falling asleep
but as usual he dozes off in the midst of FD3... =p

not bad i guess,,,

well he's cookin pasta now.. yummy!!!

well thats it folks... =)

Baskin in Tranquil

its nice to be alone in da room, doin nothing
slacking ard, listening to songs...
i love the quiet, the peace of doing absolutely nothing...
basking in tranquil....
a hug from the dearie will perfect it all..
=)

Sunless tanning wif jeslyn >_<"

day out wif no directions

talk about nowwhere to go.. >_<
singapore's so small.. hiaz.. where to go wat to do?? seems to be doin the same things over n over again.. arugh!!
yes, yes i said b4 its the company that mattters,but there's only so many times u can do the same stuff... >.< without get bored of it
try staring at the MRT map for 15 mins without knowing where to go or wat to do...
damn boring...
but well the day out trip din turn out too bad in the end =p visited west mall...

oh my... west mall, my hang out place since sec sch.. been donkey years since i headed down there...
well ended up in cine watchin cinderella , *horror flick* n as usual urs truly got freak out of her ass.... haha..
=p

La!!! LA!~~ LA!!! =)

Got my new handphone... Nokia N73, i love it!!!!
the camera's great!!! though i am still gettin use to it...
too lazy to read the manual so i am juz gonna bull my way thru... =p
well the virgin picture of my new phone!!!


and some other nice pics i took with lil' lion.. =)

Cock PicTureS >.<

i was loadin some of my old pics in my old hp into the comp and found some cock lil pics.. so decided to post them.. =p
Jo n his beer advert!!!
Mehdi!!!! wahahah
Jeslyn dryin her shoes after steppin on puke!!! hahaha
seeing double??!!!
Pomme d'amour
erhxx!!!!! caught in the act!! =p
jon sleepin during bio mech class!!!!
Grace n her act cute face wif white mustache
Tiger Beer promoter??!! hahaha... nope its elaine when we went out to shop n save...
wahahahah Pao face regina... moi baby sis =p
hahah... looks juz like simba.. =p

Colors of the wind

You think you own whatever
land you land on
The earth is just a dead
thing you can claim
But I know ev'ry rock
and tree and creature
Has a life, has a spirit,
has a name

You think the only people who
are people
Are the people who look
and think like you
But if you walk the
footsteps of a stranger
You'll learn things you
never knew you never knew

Have you even heard the wolf
cry to the blue corn moon
Or asked the grinning
bobcat why he grinned?
Can you sing with all the
voices of the mountain?
Can you paint with all the
colors of the wind?
Can you paint with all the
colors of the wind?

Come run the hidden pine trails
of the forest
Come taste the sun-sweet
berries of the earth
Come roll in the riches
all around you
And for once,
never wonder what they're worth

The rainstorm and the river
are my brothers
The heron and the otter
are my friends
And we are all connected
to each other
In a circle,
in a hoop that never ends

How high does the sycamore grow?
If you cut it down,
then you'll never know

And you'll never hear the wolf
cry to the blue corn moon
For whether we are white
or copper-skinned
We need to sing with all
the voices of the mountain
Need to paint with all
the colors of the wind
You can own the earth and still
All you'll own is earth until
You can paint with all the
colors of the wind

Lyrics written by Stephen Schwartz.
Performed by Judy Kuhn [Pocahontas]

Ancient pine

The ancient pine tree sigh and sway to the song of the wind...
Swaying its enormous and heavy branches,
Feeling the lingering ghostly finger tips of the wind running thru its leaves...
Shush shush shush....
Leaves rustle...
Aged trees of Ancient forest ...
To the sun stretching out ...
Sapling peeking out of the damp loam...
Brimming of life...
Bringing bloom to the ancient pine...

JaCkIE & jAmiE's WeDdInG

wisful thinkin =p

got this pic off ros' blog entry... awww i love her too!!!!!! gosh!! that awesome body!!!n hair n face!!! i am so totallyin agreeing on ur reasons for loving her ros..
if i hav to come up with an ideal pic of a female, well peeps it'll be her... my dream wanna hav body face and hair.. can u see the abs?? gosh!! i want those!!!! totally no fat!!!!!!!

Ride on bus...

staring out of the bus window n listening to my Mp3...
it felt good... to be sitting on a bus, wif nuthing to do other than drownin in my thoughts n day dreams, watching buildings flash by...
funny thoughts of lil lion that makes me smile.. well couldn't possibly burst out laughin on the bus, ppl will think that i'm nutty.. =p hehehe.
"vandalism", long train rides from end to end of the lsland >_< , nachos wif salsa sauce,salsa sauce on tshirts, funky pop ups mizuno tees, pasta wif pesto sauce,skinny monkey, neighbours who leaves their door open 24/7, clothes hanging on the clothes line...
well..
Funny thoughts...
=p that makes me wanna laugh or brings that goofy smile on my face...
happy?? yes i am... very much...
n yes.. i do mean every word i said today morning b4 u head down for school =)
hehehehe... =p

i've been sayin that i wanna run.. but dun seem to be doin it yet.. arughhh.. >_<"

well watever!!!

Shoutin my lil lungs out~~~~

HEYYYYYY!!!!!
ROS!! SUZI!!! FARAH!! RO!!!!!!
where are u guys!!!!!
we have to come out!!!
n ros!! aku not dead alive n jumpin ard.... hahhahaha
call mi!!!!
i wanna play touch wif u guys!!!!!!
n shoppin , terms or watever there is we can do!!!!!!!!
*MuAcKS

>_< OoOoOoOo -_-oOoOoOoO >.<

Talk about nervousness... mega meet the frens sessions.. hahah
yup the normally dun give a hoot dawn is actually shy when it comes to strangers..
hahah ya i noe u wun believe but its true,,, except for ppl like suzi fara n ros who were like old time kawans when i first saw them n was talkin nineteen to the dozen..

yes yes.. dearest all i am shy when it comes to ppl i dun noe... but when i know u .. heheh i guess the mouth juz couldnt close.. =p
had steamboat at marina.. gosh when was the last time i had steamboat..
but as usual i always "loogie" when it comes to steam boat, first i couldnt eat much, next i only go for the hotdogs (cheapo stuff) and i dun take the seafood..
so i really lost out.. heheh...
actually i had the thought that probabbly they were wondering abt my age.. this old auntie among them.. but well i dun care!
well maybe i do a lil' juz a teensy weeny bitsy =p

and after that we went to meet the gal frens.. hAHAH the lil lion's so nervous.. heheh dun worry dorlin' they luv u.. wahahaa...]
poor lil lion juz sat there for hours while we mega bitch to each other...
i love the gals.. who's so important to me... they all the ones who'll back me all the way..
thankz for putting up wif us lil lion.. =p

it was nice to hang out ard cityhall... real nice company.. =)
i'm happy...
walkin all the way till ps was nice coz of lil lion..=p
but gosh the few hr at mac was horrid...
my brain got fried.. from lack of sleep..
well u ppl know wat a pig i am..n how much sleep is so important.. skinnywag couple should know very well.. hehhe..
n so cranky 's my middle name for that morning..


RamDOm ThOuGhTs:
miss playin touch rug..
miss havin tan skin, turnin yellow
wanna run to lose weight
crappy!!
wedding tmr..
i should sleep
so nitez all...

>_<

DoWnHiLL FloWiNg iNduLgEncE

it seem like a mass of greenness whirling past...
flash flash flash green, flash flash flash grey..
Zoom zoom zoom, zoomin past my sight...
it almost felt that i could reach out n touch ,
putting a stop to all the whirling and zooming
solid n crystalline it separates..
my lil' la la world and "reality" ??
scenes of life flashing pass me,
i'm juz a spectator??
yet in the midst of perplexity,
there's something solid thats holding on to my sanity...
where that brief instance when the presence is by my side..
happiness seem so possible...
smile and laughter comes naturally like water flowing downhill..
ease and comfort surrounds me...
like a baby i snuggle against...
warm and reassuring,
i dun wanna let go...
pardon my indulgence..
i feel at peace when the presence is near...

Please..........

Stop!! Stop!!!
i talked to him ALREADY!!!
u juz dun understand so dun keep askin me to talk to him
coz i did!!!
dun tell mi wat i shouldnt have said or stuff!!!
coz i watever i said is the truth from the bottom of my heart...
u have only seen him hurtin!! but wat about me??
when i used to hurt like real bad did u guys see it or noe/?
NO!! so stop judging!!
u think i will deliberately hurt someone??
it is never on purpose.. only a sicko will do that
and i am not one!!!!!!
i am screamin screaming like nuts in my head!!
i feel so fustrated!!! so fustrated!!!!!!
arrrrrhhhhhhhHHhhh!!!!!!!!
gimme a break!!!!!!





sorry if i sounds accusive and harsh..
but i am really at my wits end..
i feel bad too..
real bad...
sorry is all i can say...
so pls please i beseech u... stop...
gimme some room to calm that turmoil inside me..
i need quiet...


quiet....

Let me be...

RanDoM ThOuGHts

talk about old age and its symdroms.. arugh!!
can u believe it, this old lady actually slept till 7pm in the evening and forgot, Yes!! forgot about jackie's wedding dinner...
>_<
lucky kok sing gave me a call... hehehe..
made there juz in time before the wedding ceremony started..
shout out thanks to my dearest beloved daddy!!!!
*mUaCks Love u dad!!!! the awesome dad agreed to carry all my stuff back home for me gosh u have no idea how much barang barang i had...
and drop me off to take a cab to meritus mandarin...
thankz daddy!!!

this is my first fren's wedding that i attended... man i used to tell yuen about how u'll know when u r getting old when r start gettin invite to weddings.. =p
well 1 more wedding to go.. sufian's... >_<"
Jackie wedding was awesome really nice... n he n jamie looks beautiful together...
all my best them!!!

its the hols now n wat hav i been doin??
erm.. sleepin like a sloth.. man i guess i muz be hibernating thru this hols..
i need to run!!! run!! run!! away all the fats !!!! >.<

seeing the asian games advert on tv.. makes me wonder if i had continue sprinting would i hav been in it??
i do really miss it.. the speed... the satisfaction... it was my everything, rankin way above every other thing...
but as i always say never ever hav regrets
well i dun... coz i guess i really gained other stuff too..
i would never hav got involved in touch rug, wouldnt have back pack n see the world, wouldnt have met people...
significant ones.. =p

maybe in life i made choices and decisions that may seem crazy n way unreasonable..
not that i never thought about the choices i made, i do .. probably more than others wil ever noe...
but i noe wat i am doin, absolutely... i noe where i wanan go in life.. maybe it seem crazy but thats wat i wanna do.. nobody is able to stop or influence me..
not even family...


hmm... gosh i sounds scary..
hahahah..
wel juz some thoughts that i randomly throw out..
hehehhe...

hmm.. maybe its late thats why my brain's getting cranky n spewing trash.. =p

Its all ur fault!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well well...
wat can i say..

hmmm..
ey!! skinnywag couple i love u guys!!!
waahahaha
i noe what i wan n i will do it
dun care la~~ sianzz

wats gotta be gone gotta be done!!

>_<"

watever!!!!!
its all becoz of u!! yes u!!!
that i noe wat i wana do!!! or rather make me do wat i am gonna do!!!!!
so!!!! its not my fault!!!!

Fucking strange n weird!!! wahahaaha!!!! =p

weird how lil' days more till i'm leaving for france... 1 n 1/2 months b4 i'll see all u fuckin people again.. =p strangely yes weird isnt it that i'll really miss u guys.. super duper miss.. maybe its that i wun get to spend time havin super duper loads of fun with all u awesome fucker ppl!!! okok i'll say it,,, i heart u guys!!! yes!! jon including u!! whahaahah... okie okie i wun poke fun at jon anymore, in case ro's oblige to defend n wait 3 sec b4 she can laugh!! ahahah... but u skinny wag couple... thanks for being there for me all these times.. esp yest.. yup yest u hav no idea how shity n god damn it nervous i felt b4 tellin u guys... =p hehhee... totaally mega stress till i wana start balding.. nope i dun wanna bald!!! wahahah..
thnakz anyway!! love u!!!!
all u babis, babes, fucka ppl, lions, piglets and every other ppl or animals reading or not reading my blog... know that i'll super duper huper miss U assholes!! hahah assholes coz i'll be missing those awesome moments that u'll have without me!! wahahaha...!
okie okie enuff of my verbal diarrhea.. >_<"
Have lots of fun without me!! BUT remember to email or msn n update me on the shit u guys'll be doin ya?? promise???!!! *showing lil pinkie*
okie okie i'll even settle for juz reading ur blogs... =p

>.<

sNaPs sHoTs Of dA BabE @ EsCaPe

Awesome time screaming my lil' lungs out at Escape... totally worth the $6 i paid!!
it was FUn FUN FUN n FUN!!!!
n ARUGHHHHHHH!!!!!! non stop!!! Free flow screaming ppl!! Free Flow!!!
Horror Movie marathon was great too!!! so yes!! non stop screamin n fright again!!
>.<
hehehe... Summary?? well juz plain awesome!!! *muacks* >.-