Cock PicTureS >.<

i was loadin some of my old pics in my old hp into the comp and found some cock lil pics.. so decided to post them.. =p
Jo n his beer advert!!!
Mehdi!!!! wahahah
Jeslyn dryin her shoes after steppin on puke!!! hahaha
seeing double??!!!
Pomme d'amour
erhxx!!!!! caught in the act!! =p
jon sleepin during bio mech class!!!!
Grace n her act cute face wif white mustache
Tiger Beer promoter??!! hahaha... nope its elaine when we went out to shop n save...
wahahahah Pao face regina... moi baby sis =p
hahah... looks juz like simba.. =p

Colors of the wind

You think you own whatever
land you land on
The earth is just a dead
thing you can claim
But I know ev'ry rock
and tree and creature
Has a life, has a spirit,
has a name

You think the only people who
are people
Are the people who look
and think like you
But if you walk the
footsteps of a stranger
You'll learn things you
never knew you never knew

Have you even heard the wolf
cry to the blue corn moon
Or asked the grinning
bobcat why he grinned?
Can you sing with all the
voices of the mountain?
Can you paint with all the
colors of the wind?
Can you paint with all the
colors of the wind?

Come run the hidden pine trails
of the forest
Come taste the sun-sweet
berries of the earth
Come roll in the riches
all around you
And for once,
never wonder what they're worth

The rainstorm and the river
are my brothers
The heron and the otter
are my friends
And we are all connected
to each other
In a circle,
in a hoop that never ends

How high does the sycamore grow?
If you cut it down,
then you'll never know

And you'll never hear the wolf
cry to the blue corn moon
For whether we are white
or copper-skinned
We need to sing with all
the voices of the mountain
Need to paint with all
the colors of the wind
You can own the earth and still
All you'll own is earth until
You can paint with all the
colors of the wind

Lyrics written by Stephen Schwartz.
Performed by Judy Kuhn [Pocahontas]

Ancient pine

The ancient pine tree sigh and sway to the song of the wind...
Swaying its enormous and heavy branches,
Feeling the lingering ghostly finger tips of the wind running thru its leaves...
Shush shush shush....
Leaves rustle...
Aged trees of Ancient forest ...
To the sun stretching out ...
Sapling peeking out of the damp loam...
Brimming of life...
Bringing bloom to the ancient pine...

JaCkIE & jAmiE's WeDdInG

wisful thinkin =p

got this pic off ros' blog entry... awww i love her too!!!!!! gosh!! that awesome body!!!n hair n face!!! i am so totallyin agreeing on ur reasons for loving her ros..
if i hav to come up with an ideal pic of a female, well peeps it'll be her... my dream wanna hav body face and hair.. can u see the abs?? gosh!! i want those!!!! totally no fat!!!!!!!

Ride on bus...

staring out of the bus window n listening to my Mp3...
it felt good... to be sitting on a bus, wif nuthing to do other than drownin in my thoughts n day dreams, watching buildings flash by...
funny thoughts of lil lion that makes me smile.. well couldn't possibly burst out laughin on the bus, ppl will think that i'm nutty.. =p hehehe.
"vandalism", long train rides from end to end of the lsland >_< , nachos wif salsa sauce,salsa sauce on tshirts, funky pop ups mizuno tees, pasta wif pesto sauce,skinny monkey, neighbours who leaves their door open 24/7, clothes hanging on the clothes line...
well..
Funny thoughts...
=p that makes me wanna laugh or brings that goofy smile on my face...
happy?? yes i am... very much...
n yes.. i do mean every word i said today morning b4 u head down for school =)
hehehehe... =p

i've been sayin that i wanna run.. but dun seem to be doin it yet.. arughhh.. >_<"

well watever!!!

Shoutin my lil lungs out~~~~

HEYYYYYY!!!!!
ROS!! SUZI!!! FARAH!! RO!!!!!!
where are u guys!!!!!
we have to come out!!!
n ros!! aku not dead alive n jumpin ard.... hahhahaha
call mi!!!!
i wanna play touch wif u guys!!!!!!
n shoppin , terms or watever there is we can do!!!!!!!!
*MuAcKS

>_< OoOoOoOo -_-oOoOoOoO >.<

Talk about nervousness... mega meet the frens sessions.. hahah
yup the normally dun give a hoot dawn is actually shy when it comes to strangers..
hahah ya i noe u wun believe but its true,,, except for ppl like suzi fara n ros who were like old time kawans when i first saw them n was talkin nineteen to the dozen..

yes yes.. dearest all i am shy when it comes to ppl i dun noe... but when i know u .. heheh i guess the mouth juz couldnt close.. =p
had steamboat at marina.. gosh when was the last time i had steamboat..
but as usual i always "loogie" when it comes to steam boat, first i couldnt eat much, next i only go for the hotdogs (cheapo stuff) and i dun take the seafood..
so i really lost out.. heheh...
actually i had the thought that probabbly they were wondering abt my age.. this old auntie among them.. but well i dun care!
well maybe i do a lil' juz a teensy weeny bitsy =p

and after that we went to meet the gal frens.. hAHAH the lil lion's so nervous.. heheh dun worry dorlin' they luv u.. wahahaa...]
poor lil lion juz sat there for hours while we mega bitch to each other...
i love the gals.. who's so important to me... they all the ones who'll back me all the way..
thankz for putting up wif us lil lion.. =p

it was nice to hang out ard cityhall... real nice company.. =)
i'm happy...
walkin all the way till ps was nice coz of lil lion..=p
but gosh the few hr at mac was horrid...
my brain got fried.. from lack of sleep..
well u ppl know wat a pig i am..n how much sleep is so important.. skinnywag couple should know very well.. hehhe..
n so cranky 's my middle name for that morning..


RamDOm ThOuGhTs:
miss playin touch rug..
miss havin tan skin, turnin yellow
wanna run to lose weight
crappy!!
wedding tmr..
i should sleep
so nitez all...

>_<

DoWnHiLL FloWiNg iNduLgEncE

it seem like a mass of greenness whirling past...
flash flash flash green, flash flash flash grey..
Zoom zoom zoom, zoomin past my sight...
it almost felt that i could reach out n touch ,
putting a stop to all the whirling and zooming
solid n crystalline it separates..
my lil' la la world and "reality" ??
scenes of life flashing pass me,
i'm juz a spectator??
yet in the midst of perplexity,
there's something solid thats holding on to my sanity...
where that brief instance when the presence is by my side..
happiness seem so possible...
smile and laughter comes naturally like water flowing downhill..
ease and comfort surrounds me...
like a baby i snuggle against...
warm and reassuring,
i dun wanna let go...
pardon my indulgence..
i feel at peace when the presence is near...

Please..........

Stop!! Stop!!!
i talked to him ALREADY!!!
u juz dun understand so dun keep askin me to talk to him
coz i did!!!
dun tell mi wat i shouldnt have said or stuff!!!
coz i watever i said is the truth from the bottom of my heart...
u have only seen him hurtin!! but wat about me??
when i used to hurt like real bad did u guys see it or noe/?
NO!! so stop judging!!
u think i will deliberately hurt someone??
it is never on purpose.. only a sicko will do that
and i am not one!!!!!!
i am screamin screaming like nuts in my head!!
i feel so fustrated!!! so fustrated!!!!!!
arrrrrhhhhhhhHHhhh!!!!!!!!
gimme a break!!!!!!





sorry if i sounds accusive and harsh..
but i am really at my wits end..
i feel bad too..
real bad...
sorry is all i can say...
so pls please i beseech u... stop...
gimme some room to calm that turmoil inside me..
i need quiet...


quiet....

Let me be...

RanDoM ThOuGHts

talk about old age and its symdroms.. arugh!!
can u believe it, this old lady actually slept till 7pm in the evening and forgot, Yes!! forgot about jackie's wedding dinner...
>_<
lucky kok sing gave me a call... hehehe..
made there juz in time before the wedding ceremony started..
shout out thanks to my dearest beloved daddy!!!!
*mUaCks Love u dad!!!! the awesome dad agreed to carry all my stuff back home for me gosh u have no idea how much barang barang i had...
and drop me off to take a cab to meritus mandarin...
thankz daddy!!!

this is my first fren's wedding that i attended... man i used to tell yuen about how u'll know when u r getting old when r start gettin invite to weddings.. =p
well 1 more wedding to go.. sufian's... >_<"
Jackie wedding was awesome really nice... n he n jamie looks beautiful together...
all my best them!!!

its the hols now n wat hav i been doin??
erm.. sleepin like a sloth.. man i guess i muz be hibernating thru this hols..
i need to run!!! run!! run!! away all the fats !!!! >.<

seeing the asian games advert on tv.. makes me wonder if i had continue sprinting would i hav been in it??
i do really miss it.. the speed... the satisfaction... it was my everything, rankin way above every other thing...
but as i always say never ever hav regrets
well i dun... coz i guess i really gained other stuff too..
i would never hav got involved in touch rug, wouldnt have back pack n see the world, wouldnt have met people...
significant ones.. =p

maybe in life i made choices and decisions that may seem crazy n way unreasonable..
not that i never thought about the choices i made, i do .. probably more than others wil ever noe...
but i noe wat i am doin, absolutely... i noe where i wanan go in life.. maybe it seem crazy but thats wat i wanna do.. nobody is able to stop or influence me..
not even family...


hmm... gosh i sounds scary..
hahahah..
wel juz some thoughts that i randomly throw out..
hehehhe...

hmm.. maybe its late thats why my brain's getting cranky n spewing trash.. =p

Its all ur fault!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well well...
wat can i say..

hmmm..
ey!! skinnywag couple i love u guys!!!
waahahaha
i noe what i wan n i will do it
dun care la~~ sianzz

wats gotta be gone gotta be done!!

>_<"

watever!!!!!
its all becoz of u!! yes u!!!
that i noe wat i wana do!!! or rather make me do wat i am gonna do!!!!!
so!!!! its not my fault!!!!

Fucking strange n weird!!! wahahaaha!!!! =p

weird how lil' days more till i'm leaving for france... 1 n 1/2 months b4 i'll see all u fuckin people again.. =p strangely yes weird isnt it that i'll really miss u guys.. super duper miss.. maybe its that i wun get to spend time havin super duper loads of fun with all u awesome fucker ppl!!! okok i'll say it,,, i heart u guys!!! yes!! jon including u!! whahaahah... okie okie i wun poke fun at jon anymore, in case ro's oblige to defend n wait 3 sec b4 she can laugh!! ahahah... but u skinny wag couple... thanks for being there for me all these times.. esp yest.. yup yest u hav no idea how shity n god damn it nervous i felt b4 tellin u guys... =p hehhee... totaally mega stress till i wana start balding.. nope i dun wanna bald!!! wahahah..
thnakz anyway!! love u!!!!
all u babis, babes, fucka ppl, lions, piglets and every other ppl or animals reading or not reading my blog... know that i'll super duper huper miss U assholes!! hahah assholes coz i'll be missing those awesome moments that u'll have without me!! wahahaha...!
okie okie enuff of my verbal diarrhea.. >_<"
Have lots of fun without me!! BUT remember to email or msn n update me on the shit u guys'll be doin ya?? promise???!!! *showing lil pinkie*
okie okie i'll even settle for juz reading ur blogs... =p

>.<

sNaPs sHoTs Of dA BabE @ EsCaPe

Awesome time screaming my lil' lungs out at Escape... totally worth the $6 i paid!!
it was FUn FUN FUN n FUN!!!!
n ARUGHHHHHHH!!!!!! non stop!!! Free flow screaming ppl!! Free Flow!!!
Horror Movie marathon was great too!!! so yes!! non stop screamin n fright again!!
>.<
hehehe... Summary?? well juz plain awesome!!! *muacks* >.-

SnApShoTs OF dA bABe @ Channel V Launch wif wayne

Great time wif Wayne at the channel v launch, we had a lil free booze coz we sneak into the vip section.. haha but too bad we got chased out.. wahahaha..
n great clubbin at butter after that!!! Thank to all the ppl who gave mi "face" n turn up i really had a great time!!! see u guys when i am back!! wil so gonna miss u !!! Shout out to the Babis Suzi!! Farah!! Ro!!! fucka ppl Jon!! Haresh!! n Ro again!!! Babes Banu!!! fiona!!! hehehe =p
Muacks love u guys!! cant wait for the next cubbing!!!

SnAps sHoTs of dA MugGeR

sNaps ShotS of Da BabE

StoryBoArd of My days - PesS FaMilY Day

PumA!!! wat Could Be CoOleR??!!!
Cute Lil Kindergarden kidz... awwwww

ThE 4 FucKa PeOplE

AARRHHHHH!!! ShoW dA TongUe!!!!!
Galz of the class.. *note 1st from left's gross so dun bother lookin at her.... wahahaha
whahaha FunNy ContRast!!!
The 2 robocock..... oops robocops wahahaha
*NoTe the Blazing sun!!!!! Ro N me in sunglasses!!
In Azwan's car the 3 CoOl FuCka PEoPle =p
Pess FaMily Day @ SeNtOsA

ShOpPiNg SpRee, PricEleSs

earings plus necklace $21 *arugh i totally regret buyin one of the earings, the blue one fugly!!.. gosh i feel so cheated by the lights in the shop n the mirror which was placed so high up.. like a shortie like me could check herself out decently... >_<
Weird Ass top $20
Fruits of my shopping spree, duffel bag $32

StoryBoArd of My days

Wat a SweEt Gesture!!! "Muacks" =)

After Test!! head down to bugis for my ShOpPing SpReE!!!! a bag, a top, a belt, earing and a necklace and round off with dinnerat MOS burger!!!

Pufferfish dawn...gosh see how bored i am..instead of staring at the book, i'm making stupid faces at my camera

Stupid JP's mac doesnt open 24 hr.., so poor us have to head back to my room in ntu

Start of sports psyc retest at Mac at jurong point with yee yuen

I love the embroidery!!

Aint the jeans awesome?!

Cheap Thrill + Caramel Popcorn + Mushrooms on the Arse

darn... another day wasted for not studyin...
totaaly juz have fun, and happily forgets about the test...
well..not really.. well mugging starts tmr n will continue for 2 days i guess...
*determined look
arrrhhh... slack siaz...
=|
totally spend the day travelling from 1 end of the island to the other....
try taking the bloody Mrt from boon lay to pasir ris...
my god.. backside also grow mushrooms la
totally cheapo.. when i saw the promo, 6 bucks for unlimited rides in escape... i almost scream my consent to the children who pop the idea!!!
YESS.. OF COURSE!! =p
even in the midst of the crappy rainy weather at boon lay, we pray n confidently *note self denial* believe that the sun will be out when we get there...
yup! the sun came out but damn!! escape was closed!!!!
what the 'ell is wrong!!!!!!!!!
the stupid, yes i repeat S T U P I D website states that its open on sat n sun n public n school hols... damn isnt sch hols now???
arughhh!!!!!
juz imagine my chagrin when i saw the No entry sign when i got there!!!!!!!!!!!
all the travelling till my arse's numb...
all for nuthing....
well the poor children n i end up screamin n groaning n moaning all the way...
but we had to do something!!!!!!
end up playing some silly basketball game at the arcade..
gosh can u juz imagine me in arcade...
totally not!
well we got thru till LEVEL 3~!!!!! *bball game =p

yeah!!! teamwork!!!!!

end up going for cheap thrill!!
since we were all set n ready to scream our lil' hearts out at escape, we had to find a sub....
so The Grudge 2 became our cheap thrill...
not say a fantastic movie but it serve its purpose in scaring us shitless!!!!
totally clinging onto each other n screaming at the slightest shit!!!!
well there r only 2 things i remember abt the movie...
screamin n cringing
and ogling at EDISON CHEN!!
did i mention that he was staring??!!
no??!!
what's wrong with me....
arugh signs of age... *sob sob
well that totally gorgeous and adorable dude still died in the end but he had quite a bit of screen time..... awwwww... cute!!
when he came on screen we all juz went "shuai" at the same time!!!
talk about telepathy.. haha...
they shoulda put him as the poster boy instead of the ugly freaky lil kid.. would have done better in the box office.. =p
well went to vivo city to slack again after that!!
man, spore's too small!! nowwhere to go!!! arugh...
well had awesome latte timtams n realize the fact at how lousy i am at photo hunt...
goshhh!!! omigod!!!
wanted to check out the gap store coz farah was goin on abt how good but ex the jeans was.... too bad it was closed...
i check out the new levis ladies jeans,,,
well some of the cutting were nice but man wats with the heart shape pockets??!!
so GAY!!!!
i was in love with the golden embroidery till i saw the horrible heart shape pockets at the front??!! how do they expect normal ppl to walk abt with heart shapes at the front of their fucking jeans??!!!
well then the next i wanted was the crystal studded ones.. but damn it will have to b handwash... wat the fuck is wrong with levis??!! u put crytals that will fall off if i dump it in the wash??! then y am i paying 200 over bucks for the piece of shit???
talk abt taking stupidity to the max...
who handwashes jeans??!!!!!
arugh!!
*shaking my head
well now.. totally gonna sleep... n wake up to study tmr...
*crossing my fingers hard
=p

n planning my shoppin trip when pays comes in .... =)

Her and Her Knowledge

There are stuff she knows better left unknown..
Yet maybe knowing wun make it better but worse..
She knows , all too well...
In her heart yet she knows , still wanna knows..

I wish i Knew

Totally missing home!
Wanna have NON STOP MTVs, hilarious Taiwannese variety shows, total bitch feast with the sisters, mum's food!!!
I mISS HoMe!!!

But....
it means that i wun be able to do work then....
But...
Test's juz on mon..
arugh!!!
Homeless days again...

i miss my bed n toilet bowl!!!
my wardrobe and sofa!!

WaNa HeAd HomE!!!!!

Home has become such a refuge for me...

P/S: today's outing really's great!!
hadn't had such a fun n chill time for the longest time
cheers!!
awesome movie, flushed away... couldnt stop laughing =p

Her, Black, Whte or Grey

It was like a persistent buzzing in her ears...
bugging her all day long...
white or black?
black or white?
In midst of swirling turmoil spinning her around...
White? Black?
Black? white?
Spinning and revolving...
Revolving and spinning...
Bluring into grey....
grey and grey and grey, endless wave of greyness...
"STops!" she screams...
It halted.
All came to a standstill.
Black? or White?
or is it
White, Black or Grey?

Her and Her Desires

The ripe overwhelming fruit calls out to her...
Whiff of that luscious fruit makes her craves..
With trembling fingers she reachs out
Through her veins desire oozes ...
Temptation became unbearable...
Her yearning fingers stretching towards...
*pOnk
With something hard and cold her fingers met..
hard, cold, unyielding glass...
The division between her and her desire...

watever

been meaning to sleep earlier.. but somehow dun seem to do so...

suckie

watever...

The crimson petals seem enthralling...
Beckoning the touch of my fingers...
The Fragrance emitting from the blossom impeded me in my thoughts...
Alluring yet intriguing...
Dews of venom on its smooth petals..
For the lightest touch spells death...

Cheap like a whore

friends... good friends... well that was what we use to be.....
till ur galfren....
it sucks doesnt it?
that our years of frenship is like nothing to u now...
we can never be frens like we used to be coz of what u said...
seem like frenship is cheap... cheap like a whore
i would say u r dumb ... totally dumb to said that...
but then it juz shows how little u value me as a fren..
probably i am juz seeing the real side of u..
how u view me...
someone to use when u r single and lonely...
i never have any motives having u as a fren coz i cherish the frenship and really thot that we were frens coz we grew up together through the years....

disappointed?
well juz disillusioned....

ya.. we'll still be frens... juz frens...

Dearest all , Reveal of The Ex

Update Dearest all

Dearest all, it seems that her pic (the fugly ex, who da u think i'm talkin bt) is unable to upload.. probably that the systems rejects ugly stuff...

well too bad folks maybe i'll try again ya...

some other time..

Bitch Feast

Dearest all.. U will juz have to visit http://www.bryanboy.com/
i am totally hooked on his blog.. this hilarious sissy guy who totally adores LV bags doing some serious great bitchin...
man its so funny...

i totally admit i do bitch .... quite a lot when it comes to the rite target sometimes...
and i wil not feel bad abt it coz i love every min of it..
harmless bitching is great...
if u haven tried it b4 .. man get a f**king life and start!!

i was juz talking to the lil' frenchie and i was way honest with him...
i noe.. u'll say i am bitching again..
well so wat if i do. its moi blog so i can sing frog croaks to it if i wan to..
i was goin on abt his fugly ass of a ex galfren...
my god... she's so ugly that ugly doesnt fit her at all...
she looks like a 30 year old hag with horrible teenie eye brows that sucks.. arugh ugly..... ugly hair which she probably tried rebonding and turned cruly again... dry frizzy hair... ugly lips...
well to stop boring u with da details
so i'll sum it up: F**king Ugly...
so i told the lil' frenchie my god what happen to him then .. thankz god he dumb her...
ha! say what ever u wan coz i dun give a half cent abt what u think.. coz i totally dun care...

*smug*

i noe u ppl love me too much to hold what i say against me...

arugh did i mention that she's one of those ugly i mean seriously ugly malaysian females studyin in ntu??

dun believe? i'll juz post her pic and ppl judge for ya self coz i am tellin da truth!
*darn there's something wrong with blogspoti cant post her pic.. so i'll do it someother time...

au revoir!

Immerse in dreams

caught DeathNote with robin today... i really like it, finally an intelligent manga turned movie... =)
The 2 leads Kira and L pitting their super duper wits against each other...
absolutely Fascinating!!!

kinda realized that i seem to be day dreaming alot...
livng in the fairyland of dreams... living the impossible of the mundane world.. all within my imagination... spinning dreams out of clouds...

sitting in the bus, staring out of the window, watching life rush pass... immersed in my own world...

don't wake me up...

Reflections

relfecting.. isnt that what u'll always hear from people...
bah bah bah about how reflection is good for ur soul???

hmm well maybe...

looking back on this semester..
it seems grey.... cant seems to drag out anything that stands out...
every day seem the same nothing catastrophe, nothing awesome...
considering the number of times that i have uttered "awesome" this semester sums it all up..
miserably minimal..

No single event that seems to stand out in my recollection...
sounds sad doesnt it?

i seem to be going through the motion,
bah bah bah doing assignments,
bah bah bah attending classes,
bah bah bah studying for tests,
bah bah bah going home for weekends,
bah bah bah once in a while chilling out at timbre,
bah bah bah once in a while clubbing,
bah bah bah once in a while shopping,
bah bah bah....

my whole life is juz bah bah bah...

probably the "wow" times were chilling out with the babes... meeting up with them seems to be the highlight.. jeslyn, banu and cheryl.. where would i be without u babes?

what happened to my life?
where's my energy that always seems bountiful??

this semester seem so energyless

where has my zest gone?

where has Dawn gone?

The one sitting in front of the comp seem like a husk of who she is...

Dawn the bringer of the first rays of the sun... peeping over the horizon, luminating the sky and covering the lands with her radiance glow, signifying the beginning of the day, sounds of the bustle of life stirring...

yet now...

Rays of the sun obscured by the haze... what filters through is the difused fragmnents of light covering everything with a tarnish stain...
the sky is a blanket of grey that blends with the monotonous grey of the dingy cement buildings...

thurs

thursday.. my only free day during the weekdays...
juz finished typing my observation... and writing my reflection though not type out yet...

thankz to the early sleep yesterday i actually feel quite good today =)

looking forward to youch at sp later hopefully we'll get to play more.. =)

(-_-)zzzz

everyone's been commentin on how tired i looked...
well maybe...
dun noe why juz feel drained listless and tired..
i tried sleepin making sure i have 8 hrs of sleep but some how insomnia always struck..
i juz dunnoe what's wrong with me...

Surprisingly the touch sessions at Sp are one of the things thats keeping my spirit up...
guess i really enjoy playing touch and having fun there....
thankz to the skinny wag couple who introduced it to me...
and to the skinny wag who wants to end his touch career, U Better Not!!! coz i am in it now!!! =p

maybe i'll juz ignore work for today and try to get some sleep early...
=)

Touch...

Touch's really fun... had quite a nice time at sp though i spent the better half of the time standin by the side... did i mention in the rain? =p
kinda catchin on abit more.. so i'm really glad...

gotta sleep soon though i really dun feel sleepy at all...
arugh micro teaching tml... =|

Bound by None Soaring Above

Everytime i crossed out a date, my heart gives a little leap...
It's getting closer.. minute by minute...second by second...
An irrepressible surge of anticipation flows through me...
It almost felt like a blanket of fog that i want to thrust aside with a shove of my hand...

Like a pupae bounded tight and snug in its cocoon, safe yes but nontheless yearning toward the day it emerges as a beautiful butterfly with wings that can bring it as far and as high as it wants, bound by none... Soaring above...

Priceless...

Sentosa entrance fee: $3
The sun, soft sand and lazing on the beach for a whole afternoon: priceless..

it was such a awesome day not doing anything other than juz lying on the beach and tanning...
it was such a slack day compare to the normal assignment dominated days...
and of course with great company.. it was great!

with nuthing to do on a beach other than reading, sleeping and definitely people watching...
you wouldn't believe the number of weird or intersting people around..=p

first was this 2 angmoh boys who were romping around on the small island like mini robinson crusoes.. scrambling up rocks effortless and watching with interest at this bunch of teenagers who were trying to climb up the same rocks with much difficulty.. haha =p
the 2 boys were holding their sticks like spears and dashing around... it muz be so fun to do that..
what really was interesting was the way they use the sticks to pin down their floats in the sea... really innovative =p

next were the couple who were stickin on to each other like glue in the sea and humping or seems to be humpin away at the sea.. disgusting ....kekeke..

the funny couple who rode a bicycle to the beach n waded around at the shallow water..tain mi mi.....=| well definitely not singaporean coz No singaporean guy wolud ride his girlfren round the island... they couldnt be bothered...

This 2 eyesore of guys who swam around in their arugh... disgusting underwear... yurk!!!!

what really was amazing was this butch who tried to surf in the waters of sentosa...
well she muz really be stupid or dun noe what exactly is surfing or she is screaming for attention, And by doing that, it is definitely the wrong way to get it unless its negative ones...
lame!! firstly its almost impossible to surf in singapore's water let alone sentosa which is a sheltered langoon with breakwater, and there was not much of a ripple let alone a wave... that poor soul juz kept standing there and staring at the sea waiting for the never coming perfect wave, attempt it by pushing the surf board on the water, step on it and ... sink like a rock...

what a loser... or such a poor soul..
someone should juz enlighten her... GO DO something USEFUL!!!

it was juz so entertaining to watch all these people... =p

well this great day ended with a nice session at sp for touch rugby.. =)

nice! and now its time to sleep n get ready for micro..

=)

Sun

Finally!!! most of the assignments are done...

The dark cloud that have been hanging over me seem to have lifted...
Yet the sky's still cloudy...
The sun's still hidding...
I want the the warm glow of the sun on my skin,
The smell of the sun on the T shirts after hanging dry,
The smell of a bright sunny day,
The Baby blue sky with white puffy clouds dotting it like sheeps grazing..

I want it all...

Plus a Big Bear Hug throw in...

Yes thats what i want!

Hugs and lots of hugs =p

Appalled!

Appalled! thats what i feel bout the shooting in the Amish school in America!
its terrifying when you think about the fact that there are Sick! people out there who would kill an innocent child juz for some obscure carzy reasons of their own..
its so disturbing...

i feel so sorry for the families who are affected, nobody deserves this to happen...
i cannot imagine if it happens to people close to me coz it is to horrible to contemplate...

weapons, they should really ban it in the states, yes there are people who says that evil lines in the intention not the weapon, no doubt i absolutely agree that evil lines in the intention
BUT the avaliability of the weapons make that Option of killing people much more avaliable and easier.

Perhaps its time they should review their laws... But seeing the ignorance a lot of the people in the states and the extreme groups that support the right of owning a weapon, i doubt that it's posssible...
But how many innocent lives muz be spilled for this to end..

well to think of it..
there are so many innocent lives that have been spilled all over the world, places that are not given media attention, to places like iraq...
My heart aches when i think about all these random killings...

it is sad that ultimately we , Humans are not much of a difference from animals...
morality seems to be a coat that can be easily ripped of by circumstances...
and that is the one thing that seperates us from animals that behaves on instinct only...

Tendril of Hope?

The crankiness seems to end when i am no longer fretting...
everything seems clearer...

knowing whats gotta be done and what i want...
calms that turmoil inside me...

There are times in life when you may have to do things that you dun want to....
no matter how unwilling you are, if you have to, well babe u've got to...

But as i always says life's unpredicatable, maybe i'll find that tendril of hope peeping through all that gloom....

smile lovely! coz smile's the best thing you can do to cheer urself up...

Whats's gotta be done gotta be done..
No matter how hard it is..

Down n Down till me feet's draggin on da ground...

1 down and 2 more to go... Assignments, its never ending..
feel so tired...
Term break?? Wat'da 'ell u talkin about?
dun even feel the slightest bit lke term break
=(

sometimes i feel so down, that its draggin my feet on the ground...
cheer up u say?
well i am tryin, always being happy but at times its juz so hard...
somehow the only thing thats keepin me going is Nov 24.. ironically its exam day.. arugh the dreaded motor learnin n sports psych..=|

Before and After

Still Fantastic...

Listening to my lastest bought album...

i love it... the guy who stick true to his music, his creation, his originality, his style....

From the first album that i bought when he juz came into the music scene till now...
it has never fail to soothes me or comfort me or entertain me when i'm bored...
music that i grew up with, music tat seen me thru my growing up years, falling in love, heart broken, stressing up over exams, arguments, moments of my life...

someone who doesnt write music for the profit or popularity, who does it for his love in music and creation...

not juz love songs, yes i love those, juz his...
unique raps, diss-ing, and the chinese style of music (Zhong guo feng)

great music...

~Jay Chou~

The rare one in the chinese music industry...

The one and only...

Free Flow Baileys!!!

Free Flow baileys... real cool ya...
plus the fact that its free... =p

well i would say the bonus point is to meet that fugly ass of a piglet , Jo! =p

Welcome back to civilization!! real proud of u that u managed to survived it all!!!

way to go slacker!!!

today's really such a relective day... feel like my head's in the clouds...
i'm so distracted...

ever since i got my tics i'm so in a world of my own... unhealty isnt it... =p
hehehehe...

well gotta start studyin for my test... =(
Shucks!

need a run badly.. so badly..

feel real unfit n slack that i haven ran for a week...
disgusting ....

Jumping Up and landing Low~~~

Down with one and another to go...
seems never ending, even the term break doesnt seemed to help...
its bogging me down...

sun, beach, chill outs... i want those..
no worries of work or deadlines or irritating test

and a great vacation to look forward to...

Aye mate!! thats what life should be!!

unlike now...
tired, tired and tired...

wanna grumble and complain..

and thankz to sayang, who's always there to hear me out, even when i start repeating myself...

signs of auntie-ness arugh!

touch rugby is fun, enjoy playing it yet wish that i could be better to contribute more to the game...
well guess i'll juz have to play more to learn...
thankz to the supportive kawans that i hav who'll cue me on what to do on field...



somehow i feel the distant call of the track....
i missed it... deeply, sprinting 400m, feeling the wind and the speed and my adrenaline pumping thru my body...
Yes i missed it...

My Uncle sha! i missed running with u...
but whether i wanan commit is another issue..


p/s: not studied yet.. =(

i need a Hug... a big comforting one to crush away all the worries and make me feel carefree like a child....
I need one badly , but where is it?

Gonna Sit on You!!

Its all feelin too familiar... arugh.. its back...
The burden of tests, assignments, micro teaching....
ARRRRRHHHHHH its crushing down on me...
ANNDD... know whats the best part?? i am still not studyin, not much anyway..
shyte..
bad shyte...


The only thing thats lighting up my gloomy thoughts is the fact that i bought , yes BOUGHT my tickets!!!!

i am coming coming coming to france!!

la la la~~


have to get back to studyin but sleep is creeping up on me... =(



hmmm... My crystal ball foresee that i am going to be late for tchoukball seminar.. =p

Smile! lovely!

feel so tired but happy =)
touch rugby at Sp was fun, i finally get to play the game and learn so much more...
the best is that i bought my boots which i proudly wear today!!!!
yeah!!!

thankz to jon , ro n suzy they really made my day!!


hanes T shirt r in so i'm gonna play colour tomorrow!!!
=)
tests are comin in but i'm still in my slacker mode... tsk tsk tsk... =|

finally booked my ticket today but it cost such a bomb... arugh.. but well i guess its worth it.. =)
not able to get cheaper ones, so i'll juz be more trifty...

hmm considering that i juz bought my boots, ordered the PESS nike stuff, not a very good head start.. =p

but well wats great is that i'll be in france!! yeah!!!!!!

CHEERS!!!

Unpredictability of Life

The unpreditability of life...
we talk abt all the time but how many times do we actually know it?

do we ever realise how venerable we are?
how easily life can be snuff out of us?

yup i know, we know all these but how many of us actually understand and learn to treasure life more?
stop getting angry and upset over the smallest thing?
stop being angry at someone?
stop getting upset and lament about how bad life is treating u?
or how u wish things could be different?

i do that... a lot of times but sometimes stuff happened around me that reminds me of how precious life is...

what if tommorrow really never comes?
would i die saying if only??
or would you?

gives u something to think about doesnt it?

love every moment of your life, be it down or ups..
and look on the bright side and be happy coz things never seem that bad when u wake up the next day,
treasure the people who matters to you, coz u'll never know...


In Memory of Julien who passsed on at the young flashy age of 25...

Becoming a Memory

my body's going nuts, too little sleep too much work....
yawnz.. so tiring... juz manage to finsh my taskcards but.. many more to came... =(

The feeling of seeing jenn yesterday was way to awesome to describe...
the familiar great feeling cameback, seem juz like the good old days...

i really miss that bunch of awesome ppl... i really do..
life in school is so boring n dull without them.. probably i had too awesome a year.. =p

clubbing last nite felt like the usual nite out we used to have, ppl like mehdi, paulina, antoine, maria, fernanda, vincent, jenn, obi, anthony, danny, tim, robin, filza, manu, ilda and nicolas who are always present during those crazy nitez...

but yet... these ppl are all missing except for me, jenn n robin... last nite..

the whole ntu is full of the ghosts of all the ppl, the memories.. man...
everytime u pass by places , thoughts of ... awwww we did this here, we did that there..... will come crashing...
and now i'm the one left...
becoming juz a memory to all those awesome frens...
kinda sad...

and all i have left is juz that... memories...

i love u guys! and i really miss u guys...

Humble death...

someone said sometimes god lets u die in the most humbling way...
steve erwin, the all too famous Crocrodile hunter died in the most humbling way we thought was possible...
the guy who played and fool around with the wildest and most dangerous animals...
Crocrodiles, lions, poisonous snakes, u name it.... yet the one that end his short but flashy life was a stingray... yes a stingray...

but technology allows us to benefit from his contribution to the zoological world from the awesome and funny documentaries he made...

A minute of silence for Steve Erwin and stingray with lots of sambal... =p

Look Ma!!!

look Ma!! check out my waist line!!!!

Zhong!

An early start to the crime world... =p

Unknowingly tears fall...

another weekend in school...
another assignment done...
but many more to come.. =(

it shucks to be so broke that i cant go out...
wonder hows the surviving gonna be like for the days to come till the sacred pay day...

it shucks to find it so hard to find someone to go out with...
and the irritating prob of the furnituring of the room with so tight a budget...

Screw up!!!!


Boring.. Boring...

went to watch Ro's game yesterday , well i really understand the game better through watching it, even though to ro its a bad game, but i am glad that they did well today.. =)


i wanna the days where everything seems like chocolate and waffles... sweet and nice...
where i'm never bored and lonely, when everyday seems so exciting and full of happiness..
where there is this warm comforting pair of arms around me whenever i am down...
where fun doubles when shared...
where dreams are full of mashmallows and cotton candy...
where everyday is fulfilled...
where i am happily bissful...

Brief beauty of bubbles

Rainbows... arent they beautiful???

hard to catch sight of them??
well it's juz a matter of knowing where to look...

They seem weightless, floating... drifting...
Going where ever the breeze blows..
Playing a game of tag where the breeze pursues them...
when the Rays of sun falls on them, rainbows appear,
specturms of colourful rays shining through...
Brimming full of hope and joy...
But yet... beauty does not last eternally...
Pop! the bubbles disappears...

You can mourn for the disappearance of the bubbles
But why not joy in the brief beauty of it and keep that moment forever in your heart...

Bubbles

If tomorrow never comes~

talking to Ro really make me feel so much better....

The letter that sayang gave me was the most awesome letter i ever got... =)
i guess sometimes juz treasure the present and be happy... coz u'll never knows if tomorrow comes....
J'taime sayang!
if i ever said or wrote anything that is negative please know that i am having bad days and i'll be fine...

Congrats Dawn!!!

i guess part of me is kinda distracted today...

it keeps going back to that conversation we had yesterday.

apprehensive u ask??
ya i am..

thinking too much?
ya i am...

trying to do something abt it?
WTF do u think i am doing now??
blogging to vent it all out!

there are times that i cant stand myself, well congrats Dawn!!!! this is one of those

la~ la~ la~ la~ la~

The End

sleepless-ness

another sleepness nite...

thoughts jus keep whirling..

absolutely detest what i am feeling now...

"break up"

some films really gets you musing...
i like "break up", coz its real...people who do care about each other juz hurt each other because of pride, ego, taking each other for granted...
and the hurting juz keeps going on till one party gives up...

its one of the rare romantic films that doesnt have a happy ending, guess thats wat makes it so real...

its stuff that could happen to people, situations that you may find yourself in...

Beep... Beep... Beep...

Twinkle... twinkle...
the stars seem to be blinking at me, blinkin uncertainities...

the galaxy is out there, stretching beyond the stars, beyond what man can see, beyond what i can see...

its a trial to grind and work towards it, there are times when setbacks push me back...

i trudge and struggle towards...
to be once again among the stars, sailing through the galaxy to the far side...

Transmitting signal after signal into the dark blue...
waiting for the day...

But...

after all the efforts, could i be back in the far side?

would the far side be willing to accept me?

The Extra-terrestrial being on earth?

at times i wonder what are the struggles for, is the toiling worth it, perphaps i should juz remain on earth and blend in with the human race...

but for now i choose to work towards it, because i miss the sense of the stars around me and the familiar sensation of being back to the far side...


Beep... beep... beep...

uneventful

today seems to be an uneventful day, well could be due to the fact that i slept away the hours...
best thing is i've got my 2 new pairs of court shoes and track shoes!! =)
yipee...
got to sleep, 830am class tommorrow! =|

hmmm...

its really nice to be able to talk to sayang without disconnecting and to see him over the web cam...
love seeing u and hearing ur voice, and enjoy ur poker game ya!!!
Cheers!!
but its 3.28am n i am still not asleep, guess i slept too much during the day...
watch ant bully today, its really nice and i love it... juz the kind of show that puts u in a happy mood for the rest of the day...

its really interesting to see things from an ant's perspective, kinda gets u thinking...

well folks think i better get to sleep ya...
nitezz