Her and Her Knowledge

There are stuff she knows better left unknown..
Yet maybe knowing wun make it better but worse..
She knows , all too well...
In her heart yet she knows , still wanna knows..

I wish i Knew

Totally missing home!
Wanna have NON STOP MTVs, hilarious Taiwannese variety shows, total bitch feast with the sisters, mum's food!!!
I mISS HoMe!!!

But....
it means that i wun be able to do work then....
But...
Test's juz on mon..
arugh!!!
Homeless days again...

i miss my bed n toilet bowl!!!
my wardrobe and sofa!!

WaNa HeAd HomE!!!!!

Home has become such a refuge for me...

P/S: today's outing really's great!!
hadn't had such a fun n chill time for the longest time
cheers!!
awesome movie, flushed away... couldnt stop laughing =p

Her, Black, Whte or Grey

It was like a persistent buzzing in her ears...
bugging her all day long...
white or black?
black or white?
In midst of swirling turmoil spinning her around...
White? Black?
Black? white?
Spinning and revolving...
Revolving and spinning...
Bluring into grey....
grey and grey and grey, endless wave of greyness...
"STops!" she screams...
It halted.
All came to a standstill.
Black? or White?
or is it
White, Black or Grey?

Her and Her Desires

The ripe overwhelming fruit calls out to her...
Whiff of that luscious fruit makes her craves..
With trembling fingers she reachs out
Through her veins desire oozes ...
Temptation became unbearable...
Her yearning fingers stretching towards...
*pOnk
With something hard and cold her fingers met..
hard, cold, unyielding glass...
The division between her and her desire...

watever

been meaning to sleep earlier.. but somehow dun seem to do so...

suckie

watever...

The crimson petals seem enthralling...
Beckoning the touch of my fingers...
The Fragrance emitting from the blossom impeded me in my thoughts...
Alluring yet intriguing...
Dews of venom on its smooth petals..
For the lightest touch spells death...

Cheap like a whore

friends... good friends... well that was what we use to be.....
till ur galfren....
it sucks doesnt it?
that our years of frenship is like nothing to u now...
we can never be frens like we used to be coz of what u said...
seem like frenship is cheap... cheap like a whore
i would say u r dumb ... totally dumb to said that...
but then it juz shows how little u value me as a fren..
probably i am juz seeing the real side of u..
how u view me...
someone to use when u r single and lonely...
i never have any motives having u as a fren coz i cherish the frenship and really thot that we were frens coz we grew up together through the years....

disappointed?
well juz disillusioned....

ya.. we'll still be frens... juz frens...

Dearest all , Reveal of The Ex

Update Dearest all

Dearest all, it seems that her pic (the fugly ex, who da u think i'm talkin bt) is unable to upload.. probably that the systems rejects ugly stuff...

well too bad folks maybe i'll try again ya...

some other time..

Bitch Feast

Dearest all.. U will juz have to visit http://www.bryanboy.com/
i am totally hooked on his blog.. this hilarious sissy guy who totally adores LV bags doing some serious great bitchin...
man its so funny...

i totally admit i do bitch .... quite a lot when it comes to the rite target sometimes...
and i wil not feel bad abt it coz i love every min of it..
harmless bitching is great...
if u haven tried it b4 .. man get a f**king life and start!!

i was juz talking to the lil' frenchie and i was way honest with him...
i noe.. u'll say i am bitching again..
well so wat if i do. its moi blog so i can sing frog croaks to it if i wan to..
i was goin on abt his fugly ass of a ex galfren...
my god... she's so ugly that ugly doesnt fit her at all...
she looks like a 30 year old hag with horrible teenie eye brows that sucks.. arugh ugly..... ugly hair which she probably tried rebonding and turned cruly again... dry frizzy hair... ugly lips...
well to stop boring u with da details
so i'll sum it up: F**king Ugly...
so i told the lil' frenchie my god what happen to him then .. thankz god he dumb her...
ha! say what ever u wan coz i dun give a half cent abt what u think.. coz i totally dun care...

*smug*

i noe u ppl love me too much to hold what i say against me...

arugh did i mention that she's one of those ugly i mean seriously ugly malaysian females studyin in ntu??

dun believe? i'll juz post her pic and ppl judge for ya self coz i am tellin da truth!
*darn there's something wrong with blogspoti cant post her pic.. so i'll do it someother time...

au revoir!

Immerse in dreams

caught DeathNote with robin today... i really like it, finally an intelligent manga turned movie... =)
The 2 leads Kira and L pitting their super duper wits against each other...
absolutely Fascinating!!!

kinda realized that i seem to be day dreaming alot...
livng in the fairyland of dreams... living the impossible of the mundane world.. all within my imagination... spinning dreams out of clouds...

sitting in the bus, staring out of the window, watching life rush pass... immersed in my own world...

don't wake me up...

Reflections

relfecting.. isnt that what u'll always hear from people...
bah bah bah about how reflection is good for ur soul???

hmm well maybe...

looking back on this semester..
it seems grey.... cant seems to drag out anything that stands out...
every day seem the same nothing catastrophe, nothing awesome...
considering the number of times that i have uttered "awesome" this semester sums it all up..
miserably minimal..

No single event that seems to stand out in my recollection...
sounds sad doesnt it?

i seem to be going through the motion,
bah bah bah doing assignments,
bah bah bah attending classes,
bah bah bah studying for tests,
bah bah bah going home for weekends,
bah bah bah once in a while chilling out at timbre,
bah bah bah once in a while clubbing,
bah bah bah once in a while shopping,
bah bah bah....

my whole life is juz bah bah bah...

probably the "wow" times were chilling out with the babes... meeting up with them seems to be the highlight.. jeslyn, banu and cheryl.. where would i be without u babes?

what happened to my life?
where's my energy that always seems bountiful??

this semester seem so energyless

where has my zest gone?

where has Dawn gone?

The one sitting in front of the comp seem like a husk of who she is...

Dawn the bringer of the first rays of the sun... peeping over the horizon, luminating the sky and covering the lands with her radiance glow, signifying the beginning of the day, sounds of the bustle of life stirring...

yet now...

Rays of the sun obscured by the haze... what filters through is the difused fragmnents of light covering everything with a tarnish stain...
the sky is a blanket of grey that blends with the monotonous grey of the dingy cement buildings...

thurs

thursday.. my only free day during the weekdays...
juz finished typing my observation... and writing my reflection though not type out yet...

thankz to the early sleep yesterday i actually feel quite good today =)

looking forward to youch at sp later hopefully we'll get to play more.. =)

(-_-)zzzz

everyone's been commentin on how tired i looked...
well maybe...
dun noe why juz feel drained listless and tired..
i tried sleepin making sure i have 8 hrs of sleep but some how insomnia always struck..
i juz dunnoe what's wrong with me...

Surprisingly the touch sessions at Sp are one of the things thats keeping my spirit up...
guess i really enjoy playing touch and having fun there....
thankz to the skinny wag couple who introduced it to me...
and to the skinny wag who wants to end his touch career, U Better Not!!! coz i am in it now!!! =p

maybe i'll juz ignore work for today and try to get some sleep early...
=)

Touch...

Touch's really fun... had quite a nice time at sp though i spent the better half of the time standin by the side... did i mention in the rain? =p
kinda catchin on abit more.. so i'm really glad...

gotta sleep soon though i really dun feel sleepy at all...
arugh micro teaching tml... =|

Bound by None Soaring Above

Everytime i crossed out a date, my heart gives a little leap...
It's getting closer.. minute by minute...second by second...
An irrepressible surge of anticipation flows through me...
It almost felt like a blanket of fog that i want to thrust aside with a shove of my hand...

Like a pupae bounded tight and snug in its cocoon, safe yes but nontheless yearning toward the day it emerges as a beautiful butterfly with wings that can bring it as far and as high as it wants, bound by none... Soaring above...

Priceless...

Sentosa entrance fee: $3
The sun, soft sand and lazing on the beach for a whole afternoon: priceless..

it was such a awesome day not doing anything other than juz lying on the beach and tanning...
it was such a slack day compare to the normal assignment dominated days...
and of course with great company.. it was great!

with nuthing to do on a beach other than reading, sleeping and definitely people watching...
you wouldn't believe the number of weird or intersting people around..=p

first was this 2 angmoh boys who were romping around on the small island like mini robinson crusoes.. scrambling up rocks effortless and watching with interest at this bunch of teenagers who were trying to climb up the same rocks with much difficulty.. haha =p
the 2 boys were holding their sticks like spears and dashing around... it muz be so fun to do that..
what really was interesting was the way they use the sticks to pin down their floats in the sea... really innovative =p

next were the couple who were stickin on to each other like glue in the sea and humping or seems to be humpin away at the sea.. disgusting ....kekeke..

the funny couple who rode a bicycle to the beach n waded around at the shallow water..tain mi mi.....=| well definitely not singaporean coz No singaporean guy wolud ride his girlfren round the island... they couldnt be bothered...

This 2 eyesore of guys who swam around in their arugh... disgusting underwear... yurk!!!!

what really was amazing was this butch who tried to surf in the waters of sentosa...
well she muz really be stupid or dun noe what exactly is surfing or she is screaming for attention, And by doing that, it is definitely the wrong way to get it unless its negative ones...
lame!! firstly its almost impossible to surf in singapore's water let alone sentosa which is a sheltered langoon with breakwater, and there was not much of a ripple let alone a wave... that poor soul juz kept standing there and staring at the sea waiting for the never coming perfect wave, attempt it by pushing the surf board on the water, step on it and ... sink like a rock...

what a loser... or such a poor soul..
someone should juz enlighten her... GO DO something USEFUL!!!

it was juz so entertaining to watch all these people... =p

well this great day ended with a nice session at sp for touch rugby.. =)

nice! and now its time to sleep n get ready for micro..

=)

Sun

Finally!!! most of the assignments are done...

The dark cloud that have been hanging over me seem to have lifted...
Yet the sky's still cloudy...
The sun's still hidding...
I want the the warm glow of the sun on my skin,
The smell of the sun on the T shirts after hanging dry,
The smell of a bright sunny day,
The Baby blue sky with white puffy clouds dotting it like sheeps grazing..

I want it all...

Plus a Big Bear Hug throw in...

Yes thats what i want!

Hugs and lots of hugs =p

Appalled!

Appalled! thats what i feel bout the shooting in the Amish school in America!
its terrifying when you think about the fact that there are Sick! people out there who would kill an innocent child juz for some obscure carzy reasons of their own..
its so disturbing...

i feel so sorry for the families who are affected, nobody deserves this to happen...
i cannot imagine if it happens to people close to me coz it is to horrible to contemplate...

weapons, they should really ban it in the states, yes there are people who says that evil lines in the intention not the weapon, no doubt i absolutely agree that evil lines in the intention
BUT the avaliability of the weapons make that Option of killing people much more avaliable and easier.

Perhaps its time they should review their laws... But seeing the ignorance a lot of the people in the states and the extreme groups that support the right of owning a weapon, i doubt that it's posssible...
But how many innocent lives muz be spilled for this to end..

well to think of it..
there are so many innocent lives that have been spilled all over the world, places that are not given media attention, to places like iraq...
My heart aches when i think about all these random killings...

it is sad that ultimately we , Humans are not much of a difference from animals...
morality seems to be a coat that can be easily ripped of by circumstances...
and that is the one thing that seperates us from animals that behaves on instinct only...

Tendril of Hope?

The crankiness seems to end when i am no longer fretting...
everything seems clearer...

knowing whats gotta be done and what i want...
calms that turmoil inside me...

There are times in life when you may have to do things that you dun want to....
no matter how unwilling you are, if you have to, well babe u've got to...

But as i always says life's unpredicatable, maybe i'll find that tendril of hope peeping through all that gloom....

smile lovely! coz smile's the best thing you can do to cheer urself up...

Whats's gotta be done gotta be done..
No matter how hard it is..

Down n Down till me feet's draggin on da ground...

1 down and 2 more to go... Assignments, its never ending..
feel so tired...
Term break?? Wat'da 'ell u talkin about?
dun even feel the slightest bit lke term break
=(

sometimes i feel so down, that its draggin my feet on the ground...
cheer up u say?
well i am tryin, always being happy but at times its juz so hard...
somehow the only thing thats keepin me going is Nov 24.. ironically its exam day.. arugh the dreaded motor learnin n sports psych..=|

Before and After

Still Fantastic...

Listening to my lastest bought album...

i love it... the guy who stick true to his music, his creation, his originality, his style....

From the first album that i bought when he juz came into the music scene till now...
it has never fail to soothes me or comfort me or entertain me when i'm bored...
music that i grew up with, music tat seen me thru my growing up years, falling in love, heart broken, stressing up over exams, arguments, moments of my life...

someone who doesnt write music for the profit or popularity, who does it for his love in music and creation...

not juz love songs, yes i love those, juz his...
unique raps, diss-ing, and the chinese style of music (Zhong guo feng)

great music...

~Jay Chou~

The rare one in the chinese music industry...

The one and only...

Free Flow Baileys!!!

Free Flow baileys... real cool ya...
plus the fact that its free... =p

well i would say the bonus point is to meet that fugly ass of a piglet , Jo! =p

Welcome back to civilization!! real proud of u that u managed to survived it all!!!

way to go slacker!!!

today's really such a relective day... feel like my head's in the clouds...
i'm so distracted...

ever since i got my tics i'm so in a world of my own... unhealty isnt it... =p
hehehehe...

well gotta start studyin for my test... =(
Shucks!

need a run badly.. so badly..

feel real unfit n slack that i haven ran for a week...
disgusting ....

Jumping Up and landing Low~~~

Down with one and another to go...
seems never ending, even the term break doesnt seemed to help...
its bogging me down...

sun, beach, chill outs... i want those..
no worries of work or deadlines or irritating test

and a great vacation to look forward to...

Aye mate!! thats what life should be!!

unlike now...
tired, tired and tired...

wanna grumble and complain..

and thankz to sayang, who's always there to hear me out, even when i start repeating myself...

signs of auntie-ness arugh!

touch rugby is fun, enjoy playing it yet wish that i could be better to contribute more to the game...
well guess i'll juz have to play more to learn...
thankz to the supportive kawans that i hav who'll cue me on what to do on field...



somehow i feel the distant call of the track....
i missed it... deeply, sprinting 400m, feeling the wind and the speed and my adrenaline pumping thru my body...
Yes i missed it...

My Uncle sha! i missed running with u...
but whether i wanan commit is another issue..


p/s: not studied yet.. =(

i need a Hug... a big comforting one to crush away all the worries and make me feel carefree like a child....
I need one badly , but where is it?

Gonna Sit on You!!

Its all feelin too familiar... arugh.. its back...
The burden of tests, assignments, micro teaching....
ARRRRRHHHHHH its crushing down on me...
ANNDD... know whats the best part?? i am still not studyin, not much anyway..
shyte..
bad shyte...


The only thing thats lighting up my gloomy thoughts is the fact that i bought , yes BOUGHT my tickets!!!!

i am coming coming coming to france!!

la la la~~


have to get back to studyin but sleep is creeping up on me... =(



hmmm... My crystal ball foresee that i am going to be late for tchoukball seminar.. =p

Smile! lovely!

feel so tired but happy =)
touch rugby at Sp was fun, i finally get to play the game and learn so much more...
the best is that i bought my boots which i proudly wear today!!!!
yeah!!!

thankz to jon , ro n suzy they really made my day!!


hanes T shirt r in so i'm gonna play colour tomorrow!!!
=)
tests are comin in but i'm still in my slacker mode... tsk tsk tsk... =|

finally booked my ticket today but it cost such a bomb... arugh.. but well i guess its worth it.. =)
not able to get cheaper ones, so i'll juz be more trifty...

hmm considering that i juz bought my boots, ordered the PESS nike stuff, not a very good head start.. =p

but well wats great is that i'll be in france!! yeah!!!!!!

CHEERS!!!

Unpredictability of Life

The unpreditability of life...
we talk abt all the time but how many times do we actually know it?

do we ever realise how venerable we are?
how easily life can be snuff out of us?

yup i know, we know all these but how many of us actually understand and learn to treasure life more?
stop getting angry and upset over the smallest thing?
stop being angry at someone?
stop getting upset and lament about how bad life is treating u?
or how u wish things could be different?

i do that... a lot of times but sometimes stuff happened around me that reminds me of how precious life is...

what if tommorrow really never comes?
would i die saying if only??
or would you?

gives u something to think about doesnt it?

love every moment of your life, be it down or ups..
and look on the bright side and be happy coz things never seem that bad when u wake up the next day,
treasure the people who matters to you, coz u'll never know...


In Memory of Julien who passsed on at the young flashy age of 25...

Becoming a Memory

my body's going nuts, too little sleep too much work....
yawnz.. so tiring... juz manage to finsh my taskcards but.. many more to came... =(

The feeling of seeing jenn yesterday was way to awesome to describe...
the familiar great feeling cameback, seem juz like the good old days...

i really miss that bunch of awesome ppl... i really do..
life in school is so boring n dull without them.. probably i had too awesome a year.. =p

clubbing last nite felt like the usual nite out we used to have, ppl like mehdi, paulina, antoine, maria, fernanda, vincent, jenn, obi, anthony, danny, tim, robin, filza, manu, ilda and nicolas who are always present during those crazy nitez...

but yet... these ppl are all missing except for me, jenn n robin... last nite..

the whole ntu is full of the ghosts of all the ppl, the memories.. man...
everytime u pass by places , thoughts of ... awwww we did this here, we did that there..... will come crashing...
and now i'm the one left...
becoming juz a memory to all those awesome frens...
kinda sad...

and all i have left is juz that... memories...

i love u guys! and i really miss u guys...

Humble death...

someone said sometimes god lets u die in the most humbling way...
steve erwin, the all too famous Crocrodile hunter died in the most humbling way we thought was possible...
the guy who played and fool around with the wildest and most dangerous animals...
Crocrodiles, lions, poisonous snakes, u name it.... yet the one that end his short but flashy life was a stingray... yes a stingray...

but technology allows us to benefit from his contribution to the zoological world from the awesome and funny documentaries he made...

A minute of silence for Steve Erwin and stingray with lots of sambal... =p

Look Ma!!!

look Ma!! check out my waist line!!!!

Zhong!

An early start to the crime world... =p

Unknowingly tears fall...

another weekend in school...
another assignment done...
but many more to come.. =(

it shucks to be so broke that i cant go out...
wonder hows the surviving gonna be like for the days to come till the sacred pay day...

it shucks to find it so hard to find someone to go out with...
and the irritating prob of the furnituring of the room with so tight a budget...

Screw up!!!!


Boring.. Boring...

went to watch Ro's game yesterday , well i really understand the game better through watching it, even though to ro its a bad game, but i am glad that they did well today.. =)


i wanna the days where everything seems like chocolate and waffles... sweet and nice...
where i'm never bored and lonely, when everyday seems so exciting and full of happiness..
where there is this warm comforting pair of arms around me whenever i am down...
where fun doubles when shared...
where dreams are full of mashmallows and cotton candy...
where everyday is fulfilled...
where i am happily bissful...

Brief beauty of bubbles

Rainbows... arent they beautiful???

hard to catch sight of them??
well it's juz a matter of knowing where to look...

They seem weightless, floating... drifting...
Going where ever the breeze blows..
Playing a game of tag where the breeze pursues them...
when the Rays of sun falls on them, rainbows appear,
specturms of colourful rays shining through...
Brimming full of hope and joy...
But yet... beauty does not last eternally...
Pop! the bubbles disappears...

You can mourn for the disappearance of the bubbles
But why not joy in the brief beauty of it and keep that moment forever in your heart...

Bubbles

If tomorrow never comes~

talking to Ro really make me feel so much better....

The letter that sayang gave me was the most awesome letter i ever got... =)
i guess sometimes juz treasure the present and be happy... coz u'll never knows if tomorrow comes....
J'taime sayang!
if i ever said or wrote anything that is negative please know that i am having bad days and i'll be fine...

Congrats Dawn!!!

i guess part of me is kinda distracted today...

it keeps going back to that conversation we had yesterday.

apprehensive u ask??
ya i am..

thinking too much?
ya i am...

trying to do something abt it?
WTF do u think i am doing now??
blogging to vent it all out!

there are times that i cant stand myself, well congrats Dawn!!!! this is one of those

la~ la~ la~ la~ la~

The End

sleepless-ness

another sleepness nite...

thoughts jus keep whirling..

absolutely detest what i am feeling now...

"break up"

some films really gets you musing...
i like "break up", coz its real...people who do care about each other juz hurt each other because of pride, ego, taking each other for granted...
and the hurting juz keeps going on till one party gives up...

its one of the rare romantic films that doesnt have a happy ending, guess thats wat makes it so real...

its stuff that could happen to people, situations that you may find yourself in...

Beep... Beep... Beep...

Twinkle... twinkle...
the stars seem to be blinking at me, blinkin uncertainities...

the galaxy is out there, stretching beyond the stars, beyond what man can see, beyond what i can see...

its a trial to grind and work towards it, there are times when setbacks push me back...

i trudge and struggle towards...
to be once again among the stars, sailing through the galaxy to the far side...

Transmitting signal after signal into the dark blue...
waiting for the day...

But...

after all the efforts, could i be back in the far side?

would the far side be willing to accept me?

The Extra-terrestrial being on earth?

at times i wonder what are the struggles for, is the toiling worth it, perphaps i should juz remain on earth and blend in with the human race...

but for now i choose to work towards it, because i miss the sense of the stars around me and the familiar sensation of being back to the far side...


Beep... beep... beep...

uneventful

today seems to be an uneventful day, well could be due to the fact that i slept away the hours...
best thing is i've got my 2 new pairs of court shoes and track shoes!! =)
yipee...
got to sleep, 830am class tommorrow! =|

hmmm...

its really nice to be able to talk to sayang without disconnecting and to see him over the web cam...
love seeing u and hearing ur voice, and enjoy ur poker game ya!!!
Cheers!!
but its 3.28am n i am still not asleep, guess i slept too much during the day...
watch ant bully today, its really nice and i love it... juz the kind of show that puts u in a happy mood for the rest of the day...

its really interesting to see things from an ant's perspective, kinda gets u thinking...

well folks think i better get to sleep ya...
nitezz

Great Frisbee game at Sentosa dudes!!!

Went sentosa to play ultimate frisbee, the team really had chemistry and we work great together... some of the games were really a hard fight...
Great game at sentosa Guys!!!! and what's the best part?? we won!!!!!!!!

Friendly or Fiendly games??

well its really amazing and disgusting how some people can be so competitive in friendly games....

in friendly games the most important thing is to enjoy urselfs and play your best... does it matters if someone fucks up the ball?? come on, not every body is that "pro" like those people.....
it is so irritating when those people starts dissing out commands during games...
Note,those are not advise or suggestions, they are commands....
people who think they know all, no doubt they play well and are better than a lot of people, but come on! what happen to being humble, what happens to giving others a chance to play and not hoggin the places?

what are those people thinking?? juz about themselves? no matter how good u r there are always people who are better than u.. stop being so darn ya ya...

hiaz it is actually sad to talk about this coz it juz reflects so badly on the class in the ICG...

......

i miss you, its juz that simple...

i miss everything about u... people has been telling or asking that LDR is hard...
yes it is coz as much as i wanna spend time with u, i cant...

sometimes my thoughts run wild...

Ridiculous!

ridiculous!!!
the fact that someone wanted to swop me with someone else without askin me first.

wats his prob, if u r the one with issues , u should be the one who moves not me,
furthermore its not a valid reason juz becoz your fucking ugly, hell of a bitch wife doesnt like me, shouldnt get involved with our school work...
and wat did i do?? juz said hi to that person at the 1st month of the 1st semester...
his wife is so psychotic....i never even spoke to him ever since la...

nuts man..

come on, why dun she juz tie her husband up with a leash and lock him at home...
as i said RICULOUS...


moreover he is not even good looking la.... the kind of guy i wun even take a second look at... might aswell stare at the butt of my boyfren's butt... metaphorically speaking
man, wats his wife thinking of....

well thats their family probs he should solve it with his wife, its not my prob, i wun give in, esp not to the fucking wishes of his disgusting, yup she really disusts me, what kind of sane person will behave that way?, wife


arugh ! enough of it... speaking more about it juz gives me creeps ya...blag!!

Beach Out with the babes

Heya!!! babes!!! it was really so cool to lie on the beach, under the sun tanning away... love u guys!!!
shld do this more often...
sun, beach, sea, gal frens wat more can i ask for?? =)

Retro 70s nitez

its was nice to see jon, ro, farah and suzzy...
well clubbin was fine... suckie that i rush down in cab yet miss the free entry b4 11pm... suckie la~
MoMo was disappointing, the crowd wasnt enough and the R nB wasnt good for dancing... anyway headed back early like 2 plus....

the funnest thing is dresssing retro together!! coolness!!!!!!! aye!!!
me with my red pokla dots hoop ear rings, big red hair band totally 70s!! hahah

woop woop woop it all flies away

i love pri 3 esp victor's class... really enjoy teaching them... lesson really went very smoothly....

whatever unhappiness juz flies away when i am with the children, they really brighten up my day... of course u have the naughty ones but they are still very cute...
pri 3 are the best, they are so full of energy and they really are willing to get involved in the games and enjoy playing...

i am really gonna miss teaching when i go back to school...
somehow i really look forward to being in the school even after school...........
coz i feel really happy here, i juz dun mind staying back to play or help out after work.

i noe that this is the job for me i really enjoy it...

tired but happy

tired..... but happy... =)

had a tiring day teaching striking and fielding games to the Pri 6 em3...
well its really challenging but not bad.. had a lot more to learn...

victor is really a great help, very fun n nice guy, taught me a lot...

had nafa 1.6km test.. arugh so hard to count the rounds there are so many students, coming at u like a swarm of bees...
but i really enjoyed the game of basket ball with th eteachers and the students, the kids are really good and i learn alot from them...

teaching eng is really tough for me.. i mean its not an easy subject to teach with the diff ways of questioning, well its my first 2 lessons only, i will try my best to learn more...

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ha ha ha....

had both my lessons observed today... well i guess it went pretty ok but of course with lots of room for improvement.....
=)

i really enjoy teaching the kids... somehow they make me feel happy... =)
wonder should i stay to have a look at their basket ball practice or should i juz go home and slack.... hmm?? i wonder.....

yeah! today wearing my new nike sports bra and shorts!! and my new nike sling bag... yeah!! =p

nike rockz...

hahaha.....

Que Sara Sara

~Whatever will be will be~

somehow, a little song i knew when i was a little girl kept playing in my head,

Que Sara Sara

When i was juz a little gal,
i ask my mother what will i be
will i be pretty?
will i be rich?
here's what she says to me,

Que sara sara, whatever will be will be,
the future's not ours to see,
que sara sara
What will be will be

Life is beautiful, if u noe where to look,
i wanna be happy and i will strive towards it...

Unknown

u ask am i dissapointed or reassured?
honestly i dun noe...
tears juz flow without knowing why...
I dun noe...

guess its hard, but as i always say u never know what the future holds...
be it something that last or ends,
it is something that i'll never regret..

you are rite,the stone is on me coz i am the one without a choice,
since i am without a choice....
i shouldnt be fretting about it...
there is nothing i can do...

it isnt easy but i dun wan to make it more difficult for myself...

ya, rite now there is a stone in me, my heart feels so heavy but i guess it'll lighten up in time...

Us

someone close to me said that if we are heading nowwhere isnt it better to end it...
are we really heading nowwhere?
No! i dun feel so...
i refused to think so...

that idea didnt even cross my mind at all... its something that i cant imagine...
life without ur presence.. without u...

actually i was caught off guard when i saw the message...

i cant deny that for a moment.. i was afraid...

uncertainity creep up on me...

but i took out my bat and hit it out of my head... whack!!!!!!!!

i dun want to think of it, i refuse to be inconfident of us

coz i cant go thru everyday thinking of something so pessimistic...

i believe in us... believe that whatever that is between us is special and irreplacable and strong enough to keep us together even if distance keeps us apart...

=)

hey dear buddy.....

wo hen kai xing that u finally have a xi huan de ren! even though hui you yi dian guai guai coz so xi guan to ni mei you xi huan de ren chu le shu han... but i am really happy for u la....
ha ha ha....
all the best la .....
jia you! zhen si feng shui lun liu zhuan... =p

Pissed

i'm pissed... so pissed...
to think abt it, i shouldnt get pissed coz there should be nothing to get pissed abt...
but i am juz pissed...
arugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i cant get over it... i am juz so pissed off....
arugh

This picture is really one of my fave, it captured us at one of our most comfortable spot...

fine

had my pri sch's open house today.......
well really like the atmosphere, thry really do stuff for the studenst not for the school..
haven been doin much, juz goin to work n comin home to sleep...
but being busy at work keeps my mind off thinkin about that awesome little guy.. =p
have been wanting to work out but have not done so yet.. cant believe that i am so lazy.... arugh.........
life has been quite fine.... but at times somehows my thoughts runs wild ike an unruly horse. thoughts of him, thoughts of us....
i am coping fine though...
backsliding is unavoidable...
but i am fine